Monday, November 30, 2009

My happy family and i love them..



These people are the love of my life...i love them so much and we are so happy together and feel greatful...Alhamdulilah...May Allah bless us and all Muslims... ameeenn!!!!!





Sunday, November 29, 2009

U gotta MOVE ON!!!!!

Assalamualaikum,

I'm so pissed when someone questions about my personal life!!!I don't owe anybody an explaination about my personal life!!! Pls!!! Why do u need to know so much? would it be any changes if u knew to much? C'mon get a cup of coffee and smell the reality!!!!This is not the end of the world!!!

Do u think telling ur friends about me is good enuff? Do u think make a comment on my chatbox about ur sadness and try to convince me that u been cheated by someone is cool enuf???? C'mon!!! only COWARD didn't put their real name on chatbox!!!

i don't mind u reading this blog but pls don't pour ur heartbreaking stories in here nobody interested to know coz the one that i'm talking about is not the person u know ok!!!! not whoever u think he was.i wonder how come u can think that way?

From now on i just want u to back off from my personal life and i appreciate about ur concern but i think there's a limitation. By the way i don't mention any names here so don't simply accused people.That's not right.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Batasku Asaku



I was created from ur ribs why did I can live my perfectly, I’m here because of u but why can’t u live on ur own?

I Standstill in any affections, I’m not a decoration, this chain of love will be in my grasp, convincing my dreams in iman..

My boundaries reminds me of my ability, my heart was wrapped by ur sorban, my soul greet this sadness with iman in my heart

There’s no happiness in this story, this castle of love are fading away, for my Iman I kept this pain..find the courage pray to Allah

I don't deserve to cry...but i still hate u anyway..



You're jealous,You just can't stand to see me get along without you.Like I do, you told me to Now you're jealous .You don't know how hard it was to be alone without you and wanting you, like I do..I would have stayed if you'd wanted but you said I treat you so badly I can't be forgiven You know I have done anything to make it through with you But I don't deserve to be lonely Just 'cause you say I do

You're jealous You don't know how hard it is to be a woman in love with you
When you're so cruel, and so jealous You don't think about anybody's feelings but your own Are you coming home?

I would have stayed if you'd wanted Would have been willing But you said I treat you so badly I can't be forgiven
You know I would have done anything To make it through with you But I don't deserve to be lonely Just 'cause you say I do

So if you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
'cause I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away
If you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
'cause I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away

I don't deserve to be lonely
I don't deserve to cry
I don't deserve to be lonely

Still Hate u anyway...

I hate being put in this position.. I'm forcing myself to let go of the one person that I need in my life. He's the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me.. I know that I'm better off without him, yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go...but I guess that emptiness is better than constant hurt.

To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

You'll See!!!



You think that I can't live without your love
You'll see,
You think I can't go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You'll see
Somehow, some way

You think that I can never laugh again
You'll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you've done
I'll never find my way back home,
You'll see
Somehow, someday

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
All on my own
I don't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You'll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You'll see, somehow, someday

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
I'll stand on my own
I won't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You'll see, you'll see
You'll see, mmmm, mmmm

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I HATE U!!!



i'm so hate u...
Really hate u...
i hate u till i can't breath...
i hate u till i don't want to hear ur name or see u in my dream...
i hate u for myself loving u more than i love myself...
i hate u...

u are so selfish..
u are so loser...
u are such a jerk...
u think u can just come and go into my life?
now i've closed all the doors for u...i'm already gone in ur freaking loser life!!!

i will not gonna let u hurt me again..
i will not gonna love u again...
because u had turned all my love into the GREATEST HATES!!!!
Damn!!! I REALLY HATE U!!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Enta eh?



"So honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything?"

"I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can."

"This is all wrong and it shows. There's certain things I promised not to let you know."

"Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish."

"I can't say I blame you but I wish that I could."

"I'm coming over but it never was enough. i thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you."

"You've got me right where you want me. Let's never talk, let's never, let's never talk about this again because... I didn't want it to mean that much to me."

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Dear Angel

Dear Angel,

I'm not a girl who knows how to win your heart neither am I a perfect wonder. All I know is that I'm sincere and willing to work hard for you. I remember when the first time I saw you; you've captured all my soul. You with blue casual outfit together with your smile and ways you put things into passion impressed me. I'll remember that day forever. I always remember each detail happened every time we meet.

Sometimes I'm kind of scare to think of you because your heart tells me that we're impossible. I've tried many ways to forget you & stop all the pestering that makes you mad.But the more I have try, the feeling become stronger each day because I know I'm serious about you. When you're not around, I feel sad & worry. I feel I'm loosing something important.

Even you choose to be just friend, my sincerity remains. Please let me share your sorrow I'll wait for you with my truth.

Love,
Your Butterfly

i'm so already gone



Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone...

Monday, November 9, 2009

He loves me but he's not in love with me



I like him... that was the first feeling I felt when I first met him.

I tried to move on and pretend that i don't care about him but how can you keep away from a man who mean a lot to you. I never been in love with anybody else but him. He showed how much he love me but how can I love a person if i can't be with him. I wanna let go...i wanna move on, but i don't know how... i have a lot of questions left unanswered.Every time I get the chance to see him I fall in love with him all over again. I can’t stop thinking how much I still love hhim. It gets harder everytime we see each other.

I love him more than anything or anyone but we have recently been through a very tough time and he told me that he loves me but he is not in love. This broke my heart and i now feel very anxious, worried and concerned that i will lose him. But what i do know is that he needs space, time and for me to be patient. Hard though this is, i need to try and give him lots of his own time. We both are focusing on the love of spending time together, having fun and generally doing what we did at the start of our relationship. I hope one day that he will fall in love with me again as i have him in the past twelve months. There is always hope and if you love someone to the point where your life would forever be incomplete without them, try your very hardest to be patient and undertstanding. Explain how much you care and why you have done wrong in the past. Talk to each other but do not expect to know everything that is going on inside his head. People are allowed to have thoughts that they may not want to express for fear of hurting their partner but by dragging it out of them it may bring on feelings of guilt, which in itself can be a reason for people becoming further apart instead of becoming closer. Only you know how much time, space, patience and talking you can cope with.

So, you love me like a friend, a sister, a mother or what exactly? And if so,then why would you start a relationship with someone that you love in that way? Or could this just be an old excuse that people use when they’ve fallen out of love with someone and want to put an end to it?

Just curious what people really mean when they use this phrase to break up with someone.

What’s the problem? You in love with everybody?

They see you as a friend or a sister, but don’t want to propose marriage. It is also an old excuse!!

i just wanna be happy....so what if it hurts me?




Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Monday, November 2, 2009

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