Can i be patient like Zulaikha?

Assalamualaikum,

Sihat? Sorry laa its been a while i didn't update my blog...so busy la..so many things happend lately and its too heartbreaking to tell.. i've learned to keep all the secrets i have learned till i die..

Anyway, i do a lot of reading lately about Zulaikha and Yusuf a.s...Ya Allah...their love stories really torn my heart apart!!! I'm so in love with Zulaikha now... i adore her unconditional love for Yusuf a.s!! I cried whenever i read their stories...Ya Allah..i wish i can be patient like Zulaikha....Zulaikha thus becomes the woman-soul who lives out her life in harsh repentance and endless longing.People always looked at Yusuf's torn garment but who saw Zulaikha's torn and broken heart?..Zulaikha who suffer the pangs of unrequitable love and longing. She thus became the courageous, strong heroine willing to bear anything for the sake of her Beloved.

The poets describe the woman, once so beautiful, aging in misery and sitting in description at side of the road, hoping to catch a glimpse of Yusuf. He, for his part, wants nothing to do with her..*cry*

Can u imagine how women suffer by the name of LOVE... *i cry again*

"If you are not Zulaikha and are not ground in the mill of love, do not waste time talking of "Yusuf of Canaan" is the warning Sana'i, the mystical poet of Ghazna (d.1131), gives. To his way of thinking, only the one acquainted with the pain of loving Yusuf has any right to speak of love.

After this period of yearning desperation, Zulaikha's unshakable fidelity is finally rewarded."When the torments of your lower soul and the weakness of your body have rendered you old and shabby, rejuvenate you soul, like Zulaikha, by yearning for your Friend."

" One day Joseph the Pure was walking along when he saw Zulaikha seated on the ground;The world hidden from her eyes,but then she had averted her eyes from the world;Afflicted with sickness and poverty, beside herself in a hundred different ways;Every moment suffering more than a hundred griefs,more concerned about Joseph than Joseph himself;Sitting on the road as though hoping that she might receive some of the dust raised by his feet; That perhaps some dust might rise from the road traveled by that king-like one. When Joseph saw her he said: "O God, what wilt Thou
with this blind and decrepit old woman? Why doest Thou not cause her to disappear seeing that she sought to bring disgrace on Thy prophet?

Gabriel descended and said: "We shall not remove her,For she has within her a whole world of love for him whom We love. Since her love for thee is unceasing I too love her for thy sake.

Who told thee to seek the death of the rose in the garden and to wish for the destruction of the friends of Our friends?

Though for a lifetime I have driven her to despair yet I will now make her young again for thee. She has given thee her own precious soul; if I now bless her let her be to thee as thy soul.Since she is filled with tenderness for Our Joseph, who would think in hatred of taking her life?

If she claims to love such a king as thou, her weeping eyes bear witness to her love" Since this lover has her witnesses with her her glory increases more and more every day."

Ya Allah this is the most beautiful and touching love stories i ever read... *cry*

Zulaikha said: "O thou with faith so pure is it too much for you, that you can't bear it!This flame has sprung from out my heart and you can't hold it for even a moment? You, of all Believers the First -- and I a woman!"

My heart has been broken for so many times but this time its really hurts me so bad...if only he knew... kan?

~ You mixed me up for someone who'd fall apart without you..Yeah you broke my heart for the first time But I'll get over that too!!Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied.Did you think that every time I see you I would cry? If you think love is blind that I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines.You never really knew me.. ~