Blast from the past...

Assalamualaikum,

Hope u guys are fine eh....me? biasalah period pain is killing me.

Well, i met someone last night, its been a long time since the last time we met was in 2004. He's married for 3 years now and no kids...So happy to see him and we had a great catching up...As usual he was so shocked that i'm still single!!! hahahhahhaa..Well, that's kinda normal reaction i get couldn't be bother to explain why am i still single bla...bla...bla...

There is something he said that really make me think 'wow'! yeah... He asked me where have i been? He's been looking for me all these years and finally he found me at RB Sogo!!! I told him that i've been busy and a lot things happend in my crazy life that's why i've been missing in his list of friends. He asked me can't i just call him to say hi..is that so difficult? i was thinking should i answer his questions? Let me take u guys back to the memory lane!!! hehehheee.....

(Flash back!!)
Ok guys..actually there's something happend.. We met in a plane...we were on our way to Langkawi. And he sat beside me..and i was on my way to my friend's wedding at Burau Bay and he was on a business trip. He say hi and i say hi..then i kept quite...coz i don't feel like talking..and i know he's been trying to start a conversation but the response i gave was very cold and i guess i'm very rude.....hehehehee...my bad!!Buutt!!!! suddenly the plane hit the air pocket!! and i felt like the plane was going down!!! My God!!!everybody was screaming and me too!!!! i screamed... Ya Allah i don't wanna die!!Then the plane was ok...guess what? i've found myself hugging his arm!!! hahahahahaha i was so embarassed and say sorry to him and he just give me his cute smile and said its ok!!!then i saw my lipstick stained on his sleeves..alamak!!! he said its ok!!his wife will not get mad because the lipstick was on the sleeves not on his collar!!Then we both laugh!!! funny!!! and really make sense!!he told me he's not attached Oh..thank God!!!And we become friends for 2 years after that...until one day.....he said i was his special friends....he treated me more than just a friend..he can't live without hearing me laughing, mad at him and he can't live without not seeing me.i told him i thot we were just friend? He said yes we were friends, good friends and we are buddies...and he said if he wanna find a wife he will find someone like me? Ya Allah!!! Suddenly that word really breaks my heart!!! He said HE WILL FIND SOMEONE LIKE ME TO BE HIS WIFE? Why someone else? why not me? i felt so devastated and i left him..

You know guys...sometimes i don't understand what make him said that? I'm right infront of him and why he said he will find someone who just like me to be his wife? I've cried the whole night its not because he didn't want to marry me but the thing he said really broke my heart.We like each other so much and we knew it, this feeling is more than just a friend!! i think he's being selfish...he want both..he wants me and he wants a wife who are like me....but i only want him..

*sigh* That's life anyway!!The best thing is to stay away from him...Life will be better..nobody get hurts at the end..

Last night when we talked he told me that he would have marry me if i didn't leave him..and i smile at him and said..just it go...you'll be fine.. i'm happy of what i am and thanks for the memories...he held my hands..

He, " You don't miss me huh?"

Me, " No.... Not at all"

He, *sigh*

i walked straight to my function room without turning back!! "Good bye my past!! i'm walking to my present and future now!" *smile*

' Take your freedoom, take your memories i don't need them'
' in fact i feel a whole lot better , you'll think of me'

Keith Urban - You'll think of me