The Pendemic Blues

Covid 19 sucks!!

Being away from my husband for almost a year and half makes me feel hopeless...

How long can i hold on to this damn pendamics gone...

My daughter doesnt want to talk to her dad and she doesnt even want to look at her father during our video call.

Gosh we miss him so much..

Numb

Its been a week since you^re gone..

Still feels like that you^re still around, i will leave it that way

Facing these pendemic apart from your loves one, its not easy...

I have been struggling with mild depression after all the lockdown the new cases has not giving any sign of decreased...

i am financially and emotionaly interrupted and my energy are drained....

Losing my close friend who i look at him as my brother has make my situation more worst...Mental breakdown and numb.

For once i am speechless .....lost of words..all i have to say is ..

Life please be kind to me...i cannot take this pain anymore...

Depressions is real...hope i gain my strenght to stand up and face any circumstances....Life please do not act like a BITCH!!!

Takdir

Menangis lagi .....

Nobody said it was easy...

Losing my bestfriend the only person who never judge me......

i just have to pull myself together seriously....

jantungku rasa bagai di hinjak2...

sakit.....amat sakit .....

Tuhan ....

Aku bukan menyesali takdir dari Mu....tapi aku terlalu sakit untuk menerimanya...

Berilah aku kekuatan untuk menjemput takdirku....

Kehilangan

Innalillahiwainnalillahirojiun....

Kau pergi jua....

Kosong...

Numb...

Airmata mengalir tanpa henti..

Aku cuba kuatkan hati yang belum bersedia menerima kenyataan yang engkau telah pergi....

Macam tu je kau pergi..

Kalaulah hari jumaat itu jumaat terakhir aku whatsapp kau...

Hanya 1 jumaat itu aku tak whatsapp kau...hanya satu hari itu sahaja aku ketinggalan untuk bertanya khabar kau...hanya pada satu hari itu Ton!!!!

Aku sedih sehingga hari kau pergi.......

Annyeong!!

Assalamualakum...

Lama tak jumpa....lama tak curhat di sini...

Insyallah ....kita bertemu lagi di ruangan ini..

Harap masih ada yang sudi membaca ...

Hingga kita bertemu di lain masa .. ciao Bedah!!

Akhiri penantianku...

Resah hatiku terlalunya dalam
Fikirkan kamu setiap waktuku
Tenang jiwaku bila kau di sisi
Dalam dakapanmu buatku mati

Jauh ku menunggu
Biar ketahuanmu
Di sini ku merindu
Jauh ku berharap
Kembali kau padaku
Akhiri penantianku

Tak mampunya aku bila kau tiada
Gelap hariku sepi hidupku
Lemah langkahku mendengar suaramu
Laju jantungku bila menyentuhmu

This song explained everything!!! This is how i feel...missing my beloved husband!! Miss you habibi....wahestene ya omri...

http://youtu.be/ANHemJuB5ek