Wednesday, March 24, 2010

He always listen...just keep praying...

O My Slave,when your idea is not write I say "No","No" when it is not the best,"No" when it is absolutely wrong and even "No" though it may help you,it would create problems for some else.
When the time is not right,I say "go slow".What a catastrope it would be If I answered all your prayers at the snap of your fingures.Do you know what would happen?
I will become your servant and not your master,I would be working for you,instead of you working for me.

O My Slave,Believe me! I know you better than you know yourself or someone else.It may be that what you think is good for you day,may actually be bad for you tomorrow(future) and vice versa.Remember my slave,I see the truth but wait for the right time to execute my will ,my timing is perfect and Im the best of the planners.

So make prostation your means,prayer your beckon,patience your sheild,persevrance your weapon and piety your armour (dress) and wage a mighty war against your enemy and my enemy. It's for sure victroy will be your's, but there may be a delay but not the denial..

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Its time to try defying gravity...

Allah Azzawajal Always Answers!!!
O my slaves! Ask me,you will be given,seek, you will be granted,work,you will be awarded here and rewarded in hereafter and remember,there may be some delay in my answer, but not the denial.

Life is like music,it must be composed by ear,feeling,and instinct,not by rule!

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Every story has an end, but in life every end is just a new begining.

Love is not a feeling, it is a is not love that makes relationship last rather, it is our commitment to the commitment we've made therefore, give thought to making promises lest you break them and destroy the work of your own hands..

In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable
dream and an unforgettable love...

He might have forgetten me. He might have forgetten what I said, he might have forgotten everything about me. he might even have forgotten my name but he will never forget how I made him feel.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life...

Anyway, Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you,
surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting,
from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No
matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can
always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

i don't want you back. Period!!


There's something really bothering me lately. i hope you can move on...i'm already gone in your life..i'm in love with someone else. Thats the fact!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

The 40's couples


i was a little bit upset with some people who are so arrogantly talk about those couples who are married above 40s will be getting a down sydrome baby!!! What the Hell? Don't they think before they say that?

I believe nobody want to be single for the rest of their life and its all Allah's will. Those single man and woman are always keep looking for any opportunities for them to find their soulmates. They not being single on purpose. So stop make any statement says that these people are delaying their marriage. Its Allah's will people!!! I'm sure these people will never give up to find their soulmates!!! not all of the 40s couples have down sydrome babies..not ALL ok!!! Look at Sheila Majid and Ziana Zain!! Their babies are so adorable!! As i said... its Allah's will!!!

Everyone has some rights over others and everything too, has the same over something else.

If people today purposely deny from fulfilling the rights of others (family members,realtives,neighbours,friends etc),will be forced to pay the due tomorrow in some way or the other or will simply suffer here and severely in hereafter.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Life is not a fairy tale..

Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins


Never explain yourself to anyone because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.

Whatever you give to life, it gives you back.Do not hate anybody.The hatred which comes out from you will someday comeback to you.Love others. And love will comeback to you.

For everything you have missed, you have gained something else;
And for everything you gain, you lose something else.
It's about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.

The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you;
It's when you don't understand yourself.

Arrow goes forward only after pulling in to backward.Bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward.Every human being will get happy only after facing difficulties in their life path...So do not afraid to face your difficulties.
They will push you forward.

Remember you are born to live.
Don't live because you are born !
Don't go the way life takes you...
Take life the way you go !

What we are today is result of our own past actions;
Whatever we wish to be in future depends on our present actions;
Decide how you have to act now.
We are responsible for what we are, whatever we wish ourselves to be.
We have the power to make ourselves.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

GLEE and Mr Schue

Well!! i can't help myself watching this very entertaining show!! i've watched all 13 episodes!!! but i need to watch more!!! Can't wait for 2nd Season which's coming in April!!! aaarrrgghh!!!! need to watch Glee season 1 again and again while waiting for Season 2!!!!

'don't stop believing!!!'

Life oh life!!


I've been busy lately...a lot of recording to be made and almost everyday i'm stucked in my studio producing my baby called The Best Of Asia.. Its one of Digi's sponsored show which came out with 3 different languages. Tagalog, Bangla and Indonesia. Yes!! i'm producing these shows...hahahaha..Its not that difficult but i really enjoy it!! and i love my DJs.. Ana, May and Saiful!!Its very interesting to learn and understand some of the languages....What an experience!!!


This week i've been shocked by a sad news about my friend's cousin who commit suicide in her room just because she had a fight with her psycho boyfriend!! Damn!!! Why? Did love make your life too fragile? Ya Allah...this is not the 1st time i heard... a few weeks ago i heard the news from Alor Star that a girl killed her girlfriend just because of jealousy!! and then she stabbed herself till coma!!! My God!!! what happend to these young ppl!!! What's on their mind?

i wish i could talk to these ppl about what they are going thru is NOTHING compared to the stories of my life!!!What would they do if they were in my shoes? Nauzubillah!!! My life sucks!!! but i'm happy with it!!! coz i believe "If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He afflicts him with trials." Ameen for that!!!!

All these while i keep holding on and i don't know whats the shape of my heart!!!so many heart broken but i'm still survived!!Alhamdulilah...thank God i still can live my life peacefully...

We gotta move on no matter how hard life had nailled u down!! Do not give up!!! All those pain are only a test for u to become a better person...Allah knows best!!!

i wish to be a motivator to all teens and shared with them my life experience...i hv a wonderful family , great friends, a lot of ppl are dying to be in my positions right now, working under the lime lights, attending glamorous events and concerts, mix around with celebrities friends, be among the first watching movie premier and there's a lot of things that life to offer... that's sounds perfect!! but my heart been broken so many times!!and u hv no idea how hard it is to put on a happy face all the time to make ur sadness unnoticed.

Alhamdulilah...i've never care about how bad my broken heart was.. whats matters to me is how to live my life to the fullest!!! Broken heart will heal by zikir and doas. Allah is The Greatest!! I talk to him everyday!! and Alhamdulilah... He listened!! He gave me almost everything i ever asked him...but only 1 thing He didn't give me YET!!! He didn't give me a GOOD MUSLIM husband. I know he's somewhere out there and i'll keep waiting for the owner of my ribs. Insyallah...

My dearest reader... i love you guys so much...and i pray that whatever u guys going thru is not the end of the not take your life on your own..coz whatever we have right now is not belong to us...its belong to let Him takes your soul as in His in these life wasn't that easy but to be in that after life might be harder..end of the day....its totally 2 different world and if u r not happy living in this world how sure you are doing better in the other world? Think about it!!!

Just kneel down on your knees or bow down on your elbows before Allah kareem when life gets too hard for you to stand..

The one who is not thankful for a small blessing cannot be thankful even for a mountain of gold...

May Allah bless you my dearest reader....Ameennn....

Monday, March 1, 2010

The Kronology...


Its been a while i didnt update my blog....something happend to me and my family lately and its changes everythings!!

Allah is The Greatest!!! He knew what's the best for me and my family that is what i'm going to tell u guys right now.

5th February 2010


The upstairs window grill suddenly fell on my father's head and it causes 4cm long and deep wound on my father's head. Blood was all over the floors, on the staircase, on the bedroom floors and on my parent's bed too. It just like a crime much blood running thru my poor father's head. but luckily he's not fainted..he still can talk and the contractor sent him to PPUM. I got a call from my mom and rush to the hospital ER. Alhamdulilah...daddy was ok..but he need 9 stiches and his left wrist was broken.


Dad's head already done with 9 stiches and his wrist already been semen and what worries me was when the doctor said his skull was fractured and the doctor need to observed my dad for 24hours.. Ya Allah pls save Ayah!! pls Ya Allah.. *thats the only prayer i can think of everytime the doctor updates me with my dad's conditions...

6th February


Visit my dad. and the doctor said he can go home coz my dad is a very strong person spiritually and phisically. Eventhough his skull was fractured but his brain was bleeding in the brain and also he's fit to go home. Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah...Allah hu Akhbar!!!!

7th February


i went for AIM judging at The Legend Hotel..everybody in the room was smoking and i prayed in my heart to get the judging done asap!!! can't stand to be in that smoky room. After we done with it.. i rush back home coz i know my asthma is coming. My Asthalin doesn't work i body didn't respon to Asthalin this time!! Ya Allah... i took ventolin tablet and try to take a nap....but still i hv pain on my chest..its hard to breath..i told myself to go to the clinic tomorrow before i'm off to work..

8th February


i reached the clinic and the doctor gave me Nebuliser. i got headache and fever. my body are all aching...i thot i had Denggi...but the doctor said i only had asthma..i can hear the wheezling..ok i got my mc and off to work..send the mc and handover my work to Wan. i'm taking 1 day leave tomorrow coz i need to send my dad for check up at PPUM.

9th February


With fever and asthma i drive my dad to PPUM..i need to do this coz nobody available to send daddy for check up. Ya Allah pls gives me the strenght to do this. I was shivering the whole day...and my dad was so worried about my conditions..i lost my voice coz actually i can't talk chest was so painfull and with the fever and i keep on shivering like crazy...but i try to control it coz i don't want my dad feel so worried about me... in my heart i pray that the whole check up things to be done ASAP!!!


Everything is done!! and i need to send my aunt and my uncle to KL Sentral. Bought the ticket and then get them on the train safely and now i need to rush back home and take a nap..i feel like dying at this point..all the medicine i took doesn't change my conditions.


Alhamdulilah...reach home safely..and i took a bath and straight away took a nap. i pray that i could wake up or may be i'll be gone...Wallahi..i was so weak...


i woke up and took a shower and go to clinic...and again the doktor gave me body won't response. the Doctor advised me to come back the next day and he will refer me to the specialist.

10th February


i went to the clinic again and my fever comes and go...i'm still shivering, my chest feels like bursting back pain...and my body aching.. all the medicine the doctor gave doesn't really works on me..and the doctor want me to see the specialist at Columbia Hospital.


My sister pick me up to send me to Columbia Hospital. done the X-ray and i got a shocking result...i have Pneumonia!!Ya wonder i feel like dying..its on my left lung and there's an infection too..i have to stay in the hospital and the doctor will do the best they can to save me..


i got to my ward and i was on oxygen coz i can't breath on my own lungs hurts and my ribs swollen. My back muscles swelling too coz i've been forcing my lungs to expand to breath. and my lungs hurts..and its really hurts!!!

11th February - 16th February

i was in the hospital...taking the fisiotheraphy and medicine after medicine..antibiotic after another antibiotic and fisiotheraphy...quite boring but i need to fight this pain..i fought this all by myself!!! and at these point i know Allah is always with me..not my bestfriends or soulmates!!!

17th February - 25th February

Resting at home ... spend more time with my parents and spend more time talking to Allah...

25th February

Follow up check up with Doctor Jurina and Doctor lungs are cleared from Pneumonia..Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah!!!

Allah gave me another chance to live!!! Alhamdulilah!!!!

You can see the different from the picture below.. i was 61kg before i was admitted and after i discharged my weight is 57kg!!! Believe it or not!!

This is me before admitted.

This is me after discharged from hospital.