Thursday, November 27, 2008

Nobody's perfect dowh!!


Sihat ke? Me? Macam ni laa...hahaahaaha...but so glad its Thursday!! and can't wait for Friday and weekend!!i need a good rest!!! yeah really good rest!!and i hope December will be better than November!! i had enuff of headache and i wish it will all go away!!Love and work and friends....with a lot of domestic problems...i hate it but i'm glad it opened my eyes and we are live to learn anyway!!

After all the trouble i've gone through i realised that there are some ppl come and go and some of them can just ignore you. but at the end of the day you know whom to turn to when you are in trouble...true friends!!! The saddest part was...a stranger came to rescue you and Alhamdulilah...May Allah Blessed This person!!

'Fresh start' is not something I use. It's a cliche. I don't want anything to do with it. Everything in my past is part of who I am.

Thanks for someone who being honest to me and sincerely take me as your friend.I'm not desperately looking for love but i need friends to talk, share my thoughts and someone who can take all the flaws...

Why do people say they love you yet hurt you? Why? I have "friends" that do the same thing I mean it gets to be ridiculous when I hear those words I love you. People throw them around like its nothing.

Love is a beautiful thing! do not simplay say i love you if you didn't meant it.

Some people thinks that i'm too loud.....this is what i least i'm not perfect dowh!!

Cause sometimes, I said sometimes I hear my voice and it's been here, silent all these… Years go by will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand? Years go by if I'm stripped of my beauty and the orange clouds raining in my head. Years go by will I choke on my tears ‘til finally there is nothing left? One more casualty you know we're too easy..

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

On my own now!!!

Lately i've lost some of my inspirations..and i guess i've found it in this song!! By Whitney Houston called On My Own..nice beautiful song...a great song to listen this whole week!!!Enjoy!!!

I'm not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lies
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
Time for me to do it

Oh I start again go back to one
I'm running things my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid

Cinta oh Cinta....


Apa khabar? aku sihat alhamdulilah..duduk di depan laptop mencari idea untuk menulis skrip tapi tiba2 dapat idea untuk menulis blog!!! Ahahahahahahhahaaa.....iyooo laa!!!

Well, semalam aku telefon maksik aku yang berada di Mekah..dapatlah meluahan segala kesedihan di hati..aku minta dia doakan ketenangan hati dan dimurahkan rezeki...dan diperolehi kesihatan supaya aku dapat menjaga orang tua ku sebaik mungkin....

Lepas isyak ada seorang teman telefon aku...dia menyesali atas perbuatan dia terhadap gf dia selama ini..dia tak sangka gf dia terlalu menyayangi dia sehinggakan sanggup berbuat apa saja...demi cinta yang sejati katanyaa.... tapi kesabaran setiap insan itu ada batasnya...kini gf dia dah tinggalkan dia kerana tak sanggup dengan perangainya yang tak pernah menghargai pengorbanan dia..Kalau aku pun aku tinggalkan aja lelaki yang tak tau menghargai perasaan wanita..

Lumrah manusia bila dah ditinggalkan baru laa nak menyesal, barulah nak sedar yang dia telah kehilangan orang yang ikhlas menyayanginya...Ego lelaki memang kita tak blh nak lawan....tapi kerana keegoaan ini lah telah memakan dirinya...

Kini gf dia dah ada pengganti...lebih baik dari kawan aku ni..iisskkk...orang cantik memang laa cepat dapat pengganti..tapi aku faham apa yang dilalui oleh perempuan tu...i would do the same too!! Don't waste your time with someone who are not feel the same way you are..jangan buang masa...kalau jumpa yang tak sesuai...just say 'NEXT!!' hahahahahahahhhaaa

Life goes on baby!! We got to move on!! Enjoy life as much as you can baby!! Kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana!! Kita kene laa memilih...coz this is our life!! but if i found someone who love me of what i am....i'll love him more!!Nowadays susah nak cari lelaki yang sayang kat kita seadanya...and for guys out there, just cut the ego aside..if you love the girl you got to tell her and show to her...because we need to know how do you feel...if you just let the girl keeps on show and give her love to you, i bet one day she'll walk away from your 'egoistic' life!! jangan menyesal pulak lepas tuu...ehhh...orang perempuan ni kalau dah sayang memang sepenuh hati tapi lelaki selalu take advantage....kan?

Well, aku sudah muak dengan perangai lelaki macam ni...tapi aku tak pernah menyesal kerana at the end of the day i'm not missing anything!!I did best but if you still want to stick to your ego...i'll let be.. and wish you all the best for your next so called 'relationship'. It won't take you anywhere coz you'll never changed!!!

Berbahagialah para pecinta
kalian dianugerahi rasa cinta dan dicintai
Tolong jangan sia-siakan
Karena Bagaimana pun, cinta tetap cinta

Seringkali manusia tidak menghargai cinta
Ketika cinta itu ada
Ketika cinta datang, mencoba untuk menyapa

Mungkin mereka baru akan merasa betapa berharganya cinta
Bila mereka merasakan betapa sulit untuk mendapatkannya

Teman, siapapun, dengarkan pesanku
Hargailah cinta
Tolong, jangan sia-siakan
Jangan buang dan abaikan

Kalau kalian mau tahu betapa berharganya cinta
Cobalah menjadi orang yang memperjuangkannya sungguh-sungguh
Dan gagal,…berulang-ulang.

Maka di situlah kalian akan tahu
Arti Cinta

Monday, November 24, 2008

How do you know he's in love?


I've found this good article about how do you know he is in love? I guess this will help you to know a lil bit about men....or whoever you've been dating.

No men can hide his feelings when he is in love. He leaves trails behind and exude signs that give away his state of heart.....

You start thinking about the future and she's in it: It used to be that future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.

Other priorities take a back seat: You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free for dinner; you don't mind missing a workout.

You don't mind compromising sometimes: There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but with her it's different. You don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or alerting them to accomodate her.

You love spending time with her: You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening.

You don't notice other women as much: Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her.

You have great chemistry: You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you seem to always be on the same wavelegth, and think in similar ways, that's a geat sign.

You find her quirks charming: The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes, fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness.

You care about her: When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh.

You can't stop thinking about her: She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her.

You've forgotten your ex: Ever since you met this new girl, the thought of getting back together with your ex is the furthest thing in your mind. You barely recall what you found so great about her in the first place.

Hujung minggu yang sibuk!!


Sihat ke? Aku sihat dan penat...but happy sangat2....i'm happy coz i got to take my uncles and aunt to the places they wanted to go...and eat a nice seafood, donuts, coffee, keropok lekor, tahu bakar and we do a lot of catching up too!! iyer laa dah lama tak duduk lepak and talks...

So glad to see Cik Abang and Zaki....kita merayap dari ke Putrajaya, Bangsar, Pavillion hingga ke Masjid India....yang best masa kat Souq Putrajaya aku minom ABC and this is what i got!!!!! ABC with karipap!!!What a combination? but whatever it is....the karipap was so nice!!! and ABC ia pun sedap jugakk!!!

Then last Saturday kita pergi ke Bangsar Village, Zaki dan aku dok peratikan decoration krismas tree diorag yang diorg buat dengan botol. Very creative!! and nice!!! Zaki bilang its not easy to do it eventhough it looks very simple...

Dan hasilnya adalah... ini!!!

Malam tadi aku hantar cik abang dan Zaki ke LCCT...My God!! aku blh sesat!!! hahahaah..tell you the truth, i've never been to LCCT before!!! hahahahaa so sad eehh!! Tapi kalau KLIA tu selalu laaa.....Akhirnya, jumpa jugaklah LCCT!! sampai di sana nasib baik kita terawal for check in!!!

I'm so glad diorg happy dengan KL trip diorg...Alhamdulilah....insyallah kalau ada rezeki aku akan visit diorg kat PErth!! Gonna miss them so much!! Semoga hidup diorg diberkati Allah setelah penat menjaga arwah nenek dan tok!!!Sedih aku dengar cerita Zaki mcm mana dia jaga arwah nenek n tok....hanya Allah aja yang membalas jasa2 diorg...amin....

Cik Abang and i...

Zaki and i

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Thank God Its Friday!!


Lepas keje semalam aku lepak kat Pelita KLCC dengan paksik2 dan maksik aku..sbb paksik aku dr S'pore ni nak makan nasi Kandar and tak nak ke keluar town plakk..nak makan kat area KLCC je coz diorg dok kat Impiana KLCC...Oklah aku pun bawak ke Pelita...

Aku memang tak suka gi sana coz keadaan kat Pelita tu bising dan stuffy...iyer laa...abis satu badan aku bau kari seyy!!Tapi so happy laa tengok pakcik aku naik syok makan nasi Kandar heehehehhe...

Well, actually aku happy sangat dapat jumpa Kaer kat opis malam tadi..macam2 benda kita berborak...iyer laa last aku jumpa dia kat Xfresh!! dah hampir 2 tahun tak jumpa dan so glad that Kaer so happy with his new life kat Jakarta!!! So proud of you dik!! Dulu masa kat Xfresh aku n Adi selalu jemput Kaer...dan kerana teruja dengan video clip Izin ku pergi yang ala2 kisah hidup aku tu (ehh jgn ketawa ehh...mmg betul!!) pasal video clip tu laa aku jemput Ghaz!!! hahaahahaaa....director video clip terkenal...hah? korang tak kenal? biar betik? Si Ghaz ni terkenal dengan video2 clip Anuar Zain!! let me recall.... Video Mungkin - AZ, Mungkir Bahagia - Hazami, Izin ku pergi - Kaer...banyak lagi laa..semua video clip best2!! He's so creative laaaa!!!!

Ok back to Kaer stories....Masa 1st time aku n Farah-d (dulu Xfresh now dia kat Era) tgk video clip Izin ku pergi...kita menangis!!(emotional sangat eehh kitaorg ni ) yup!! we are very emotional person ok!!! not Farah-d laa but me hehehehehe....bila tgk video clip tu aku menangis coz its so freaky laa...i saw myself in that video clip...bukan part Kaer laa..aku perempuan dlm video clip tu...hahahahahaha..Ghaz was so shocked bila dgr cerita aku and dia kata i got to see his Izin ku pergi nyer video clip coz similar dgn cerita aku kat dia...tu yang bila aku tgk vc tu aku menangis...he was right!!!

Oklah no more cerita sedih enuff of sad stories are gambar Kaer and i...

Friday, November 21, 2008

Relationships are tricky business...


Sihat? Pekabar? Aku tengah sakit perut ni..biasalaa aunty rose datang daa...hahahaha..

Well, Alhamdulilah...aku rasa happy bila dapat call dari makcik aku dari Mekah!!Alhamdulilah...dia dah sampaikan salam aku pada Rasullulah, berdoa di atas Jabal Rahmah, dan sebut nama aku di hadapan Kaabah!! Ya Allah..kau jemputlah aku kembali ke rumah Mu YA Allah!!!Aminnnnn....

Aku dah planned nak ke Umrah insyallah March next year...Lagi cepat lagi semua bergantung pada rezeki..Ayah aku dok tanya2 mcm nak sponsor je...hahahhaahaa....kalau orang nak bagi aku tak tolak!!Tapi kalau dia nak bawak aku gi buat Haji 2010 ni lagi baguss!!!!insyallah..

oklah back to the business....i'm here to talk about relationships!!i'm 34 and i'm totally sick of doing the dating game and starts to know new people in my dating life!! but i don't have a choice and i have to do it until i found my future husband or my new guy friends...and this year alone i've met a few of them and some of them are nice , some of them are so mean, and some of them are fun!!

The first most common reason why people tend to get insecure and back off during the early stages of dating is the fact that they might not receive a phone call/SMS as promised. If you are on a date with someone and you are the one who says you are going to call/sms, then make sure to make that phone call/sms. If you say you're going to call/sms in a day or two but call/sms after a week instead, it could give out the signal that you are not very interested.

At the end of all those dating games i've found that relationships are tricky business. It does not pay to enter in them unless you are yourself. You should not compromise on your identity. If you can be accepted for the way you are , your likes and dislikes, the way you dress, even your love for something boring, then you will have a lot better chance of the relationship growing and enduring. Accepting differences is important too. Don't go into a relationship hoping to change someone, and most importantly be yourself. That will help you grow as an individual while enriching your relationship.


Penat ekk!!i think i did my best in everything including starting a relationship.... and i should call it off for now least for this 1 and a half month before i reached 35 on 1st January 2009!! Yess!! i'm gong to be 35 baby!!! i'm not worried at all!!I'm sure 2009 will bring me a lot of joy and happinesss..insyallah!! Do a lot of Doa and hopefully insyallah i can perform my 2nd Umrah!!! amin...amin...amin....and starts 2009 with 'another' new spirits!!!!! ahahahahaha.... new resolutions??? naahhh!!!! i always come out with a lot of resolutions every months!!! ahahahahhahaaa....

So happy its weekend again...and hope you guys have a blesssing weekend yach!!!! wasalam!!!!

p/s: Hati dan perasaan…
Jika kamu ada
Berilah aku jawapanmu
Agar aku bisa menjagamu selalu dengan baik
Agar hati dan perasaanku tidak merosakkan diriku

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Commitmentphobic Man


It has been my worst month of 2008...and i'm slowly getting back on my track..lets keep the record straight ok..i'm in a mess these few weeks and my life is freaking sucks at these moment....i have a week to get back my so called 'normal life'!!i don't care what have i missed!!! just don't give a goes on honey!!Whoever can't get into my ride i'm happy to see you the end of the day its about 'trust'...i'm not stupid to believe all your jokes!!i'm 34 yrs old for God sake!!Stop fooling around!!

i wanna talk about a commitmentphobic man. I've met a few of them and these kinda of man who always tells you how lonely and sad their life are. They will tell you all the grandmother's stories and how they wanted to start a family with you!! BUT!!! there is a BIG BUT here!! Unfortunately they are only a story teller and they are actually a commitmentphobic man!!Believe me whatever they said they didn't mean it!! If you started to believe them and give your full attention to their life and think that you could fit into their lonely life and you are wrong!! and they will make u like a fool to believe them coz they are so comfortable of what they are now!! They don't need you!!Why is that? because they are Commitmentphobic Man!!! They want you to be around but they don't want to love you...coz if they fall in love with you it will create a commitment and it will scared the hell of them.Such a Loser!! Don't you think?

Why is it that a man can be so amazing, affectionate, and share a strong 'connection' with you at first? But then is unable to stay close and loving with you when it comes to a real, lasting, committed relationship?

Have you ever met a man who you felt a strong connection with, but something else inside told you he wouldn't be 'good' for you in the long run? But you moved forward with him in spite of the clear signs of danger you saw in him?

Maybe you opened up anyway and fell into a relationship with him, perhaps for months, or even years. But eventually everything fell apart the way you thought it would, and that's when it dawned on you that your very first gut reaction was right.

This song goes to all Commitmentphobic Man..

Selamat Tinggal - Nikki

Kata akhir selamat tinggal
Keputusanku bukan kejutan
Inilah yang terbaik buat diriku dan dirimu
Kini kau bebas pergi

Usah ditanya mengapa
Kau tahu jawapannya
Usahlah lagi kau berpura pura
Muakku dengan sikapmu
Yang tidak pernah jujur
Permainkan hati dan perasaan
Ku lepaskan kau pergi

Jangan cuba kau merayu
Tiada lagi peluang sudah terlewat

Usah ditanya mengapa
Kau tahu jawapannya
Usahlah lagi kau berpura pura
Muakku dengan sikapmu
Yang tidak pernah jujur
Permainkan hati dan perasaan

Biarku tanggung semuanya
Dari hidup merana
Ku doakan kau bahagia dengannya
Ku lepaskan kau pergi
Ku lepaskan kau pergi
Selamat tinggal

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

relationship with an emotionally unavailable man


This week a lil bit upset me....i don't know why but this cool article had swap away my sadness....its from a blog i've read.. Posted by Evan Marc Katz many cool article in his blog...and this is the coolest one!! check this out!!

Can you have a relationship with an emotionally unavailable man?

A healthy relationship with an emotionally unavailable man is like a threesome with Brad Pitt and George Clooney. Only in your dreams. And yet this is the most popular question I get. Click your heels three times if you’ve heard this before.
“I’ve been dating this guy for (X Months) now and I like him more than anyone I’ve met in a long time. I see him (Y times) a week and while he tells me he cares about me and ultimately wants to settle down, he also makes it very clear that he’s not in a good place right now. I believe him and really want to make this work but I’m not sure I can take it anymore because I want a future with him. The uncertainty is killing me. Can I get him to commit or should I get out now?”

Here is my point of view based on scenarios I typically hear:

1. Dating for several months. Seeing each other once a week.
Is this guy a boyfriend? Or just a guy you sleep with once a week. A boyfriend is committed to you. He calls you every day. He buys you things because he’s thinking of you. He wants to see you during most of his spare time. Ask yourself if this guy passes those boyfriend tests.

2. Shuts me out. No contact for a day. Not invited to parties.
Not very boyfriend like. You know how I can tell? I’ve BEEN that guy. I’ve dated people who I liked but didn’t want to lose, but went out to parties seeing if I could trade up. And as long as he can keep you around without committing to you, who can blame him?

3. Likes to move slowly. Values his independence. Shies from change.
Looks like you should be doing PR for this guy, because you’ve bought all of his bullshit excuses, hook, line and sinker.

4. Told me he’s not emotionally in a place for a relationship – Um, and what was it you said you wanted? That’s right. A relationship.

5. Said I deserved to have what I wanted and had a right to walk away
Hey! The first thing he’s gotten right.
So listen to this man of integrity and take his sage advice.
Walk away and don’t look back.
If he follows, you’ll know you’ll have yourself a boyfriend who values you and will follow you to the end of the earth. That is what you deserve.
If he doesn’t, then he’s not all that serious about keeping you in his life, is he?

Friday, November 14, 2008

Bukan Kasih ku....


So many things happend these few days..its really sucks!!Tak de mood nak cakap apa2 kat sini...hari2 aku menangis...sampai bengkak2 mata..aku jadi mangsa keadaan..tiada pembelaan langsung...walau aku nak bela diri pun aku tetap dipersalahkan..its unfair kan? tapi hidup ni mana ada yang adil...cuma Allah Yang Maha Adil...

Hati aku tengah remuk sekarang ni..semua orang yang aku sayang telah menyakiti hati aku ...aku rasa hidup ni mcm kosong..hanya di atas sejadah aku berbicara dgn Tuhan...hanya Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui...

Ironiknya semua berlaku dalam masa yang sama..its such a bad time for me...aku terasa selagi aku hidup..aku telah menyusahkan diorg...padahal diorg lebih tau siapa yang salah....

Aku rasa macam nak pergi jauh je...tapi tak tau ke mana..everyday i cry to sleep...i just can't take it anymore!!Semua nak salahkan aku...walau kecik je sebab dia..mmg tak patut betullah...padahal ada orang buat kesalahan lagi besar tp tak pulak kene carut..biasalah adat manusia pilih kasih...skrg ni aku rela hidup bersendirian...just wanna have a lil space...

anyway,First time aku dengar lagu Bukan kasih ku...dari Kaer aku menangis..this is so my situation right now...aku masih belum bersedia nak citer apa2 lagi tentang benda ni..nanti korang pasti tau...

inikah akhirnya tinggallah lara di sini terpadamlah erti kasih setelah dikau pergi.. telah ku korbankan sudah aku curahkannya semua kasih suci pada diri mu...

tak ku mahu asmara kan hancur seperti debu,tak ku mahu dirimu bukan lagi kekasih ku
dan disini tinggallah aku menantikan kasih,sesaat berlalu bertahun ku rasa...pedihnya

oh manakah silapnya kemanakah kan ku bawa..erti cinta sejati cuma di mimpi...

Friday, November 7, 2008

Tulang Rusuk ku!!!


Heyloww!! sihat? Aku mcm ni jugakla..sekejap dah jumaat eehh..hari ni 7/11 or 7Eleven...hahahhaa..mcm familiar nama tu eehh....kejap dah hujung minggu ...dan kejap je dah seminggu di bulan November!!! tak sabar rasanya nak tunggu tahun 2009!!Tak sabar rasanya nak lepaskan 2008 yang penuh dengan cerita ceriti yang mencalar jiwa....

Wokey laa...tadi masa aku surfing aku terjumpa dgn artikel ni...cerita tentang Tulang Rusuk!! so touching....harap korang baca...its one of hell of a story!!! trust gonna like it!!!

WANITA: Siapa yang paling kamu cintai di dunia ini?
LELAKI: Kamu!!!
WANITA: Menurut kamu, saya ini siapa?
LELAKI: (Berfikir sejenak, lalu menatap WANITA dengan pasti).
Kamu, tulang rusukku!

Kerana Allah melihat bahawa Adam kesepian. Saat Adam sedang lena tidur, Allah mengambil rusuk Adam dan menciptakan Hawa. Semua LELAKI mencari tulang rusuknya yang hilang dan saat menemukan wanita untuknya, tidak lagi merasakan sakit di hatinya…

Setelah berkahwin, pasangan itu mengalami masa yang indah dan manis untuk sementara. Setelah itu, pasangan muda ini mulai tenggelam dalam kesibukan masing-masing dan kelelahan hidup yang ada. Hidup mereka menjadi membosankan.

Kenyataan hidup yang kejam membuat mereka mulai menyisihkan impian dan cinta satu sama lain. Mereka mulai bertengkar dan pertengkaran itu mulai menjadi semakin panas. Pada suatu hari pada akhir sebuah pertengkaran WANITA lari keluar rumah.

Saat tiba di seberang jalan, dia berteriak “Kamu tidak cintakan saya lagi!!!”. LELAKI sangat membenci ketidakdewasaan WANITA dan secara spontan juga berteriak “Saya menyesali perkahwinan ini! Kamu ternyata bukan tulang rusukku!!!”

Tiba-tiba WANITA terdiam, dan berdiri kaku untuk beberapa saat. LELAKI menyesali akan apa yang sudah dia lafazkan, tetapi seperti air yang telah tertumpah tidak mungkin untuk diceduk kembali. Dengan berlinang air mata, WANITA kembali ke rumah dan mengambil barang-barangnya, bertekad untuk berpisah.

“Kalau saya bukan tulang rusukmu, biarkan saya pergi. Biarkan kita
berpisah dan mencari pasangan sejati masing-masing”.

Lima tahun berlalu. LELAKI masih belum lagi berkahwin, tetapi berusaha mencari khabar akan kehidupan WANITA. WANITA pernah ke luar negeri tetapi sudah kembali. Dia pernah berkahwin dengan seorang asing dan bercerai. LELAKI agak kecewa bila mengetahui WANITA tidak menunggu, sepertinya.

Dan di tengah malam yang sunyi, dia meminum kopinya dan merasakan sakit di hatinya. Tetapi LELAKI tidak sanggup mengakui bahawa dia merindukan WANITA.

Suatu hari, mereka akhirnya bertemu kembali. Di airport, tempat di mana banyak terjadi pertemuan dan perpisahan, mereka dipisahkan hanya oleh sebuah dinding pembatas.

LELAKI: Apa khabar?
WANITA: Baik… kamu sudah menemui tulang rusukmu yang hilang?
LELAKI: Belum.
WANITA: Saya akan terbang ke New York dengan penerbangan berikut. Saya akan kembali 2 minggu lagi. Telefon saya kalau kamu berkesempatan. Kamu tahu nombor telepon saya kan? Tidak ada yang berubah.

WANITA tersenyum manis, berlalu di hujung lafaz “Selamat tinggal…”

Satu minggu kemudian, LELAKI menerima khabar WANITA adalah salah seorang korban Menara WTC. Malam itu, sekali lagi, LELAKI meneguk kopinya dan kembali merasakan sakit dihatinya. Akhirnya dia sedar bahqwa sakit itu adalah kerana WANITA, tulang rusuknya sendiri yang telah dengan bodohnya dia patahkan sendiri…

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Hoping against HOPE!!

"How do you know if it is really love?" Well, as you can imagine, this also happens to be one of the most difficult questions to answer! Love is such a strange, wonderful thing that nobody really has codified what it is yet.

Now, in order to find out if you love someone, the basic place to start would be to ask yourself, do you want to be with them? If the answer is no, then it really can't be love. When you love someone, you want to be with them. Not just be with them, but share everything with them. Just being close to them isn't enough, you want to be a part of them, a part of their life forever. You can't stand the thought of being away from them yet, when you are, you still feel that ever-present bond that ties you together wherever you go. You can almost feel what they are feeling. You feel like, with a little bit of effort, you can see what they are seeing and think what they are thinking. It is almost as if you both can occupy each other's bodies with complete trust and harmony. That to me is love.

But its so different now.... i don't know what goes wrong... i guess this is not LOVE..this is something that i don't know what...

There is much truth to the statement that timing is everything. We aren't always meant to be or do the things we want at exactly the time we think we should. Sometimes life has other plans for us. Having said that, limbo is not a very comfortable place for many of us. I think in we need to assess exactly what stage of a relationship we were in and where the possibility of a relationship could be. Did i ever think he is serious when he says he eventually wants a relationship, or am i just his comfort zone since we know each other so well? It is critical at this stage to objectively look at these things. i Don't let feelings of emotion blind me to what may really be happening. My heart is an important part of me and its well-being should be a high priority.

Moral of the story is....Don't ever waste your time with someone who doesn't feel the same way...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Di lemma besar...


Pekabar? Sihat ke? Aku rasa penat bangat ni...tak tau kenapa...may be because aku berada di dalam dilemma besar!!!

Mulai terasa lelah aku bertahan ..terlalu lama kau terdiam...terlalu lama kau merendam cinta....Berapa besar yang ku dapatkan ..tak selamanya ku mengalah ..tak selamanya ku diam...Bawaku pergi dari ini..di tempat kau berpaling..dan bila ku pergi dari ini akankah kau kembali? Harus berapa lama terus berjalan dalam hati tak teryakinkan..segalanya kan berubah...ku dapat menerima tapi tak mengerti...

Aku pernah mengenalmu, begitupun kamu pernah mengenalku.Kamu pernah berjalan disisiku, begitupun aku pernah melangkah seiring disisimu.

Kita pernah saling tatap lalu tersenyum.Kita pernah saling bercerita lalu tertawa
Kita pernah saling ego hingga tumbuh pengertian.Kata Kita kini sudah jadi Aku dan Kamu.Kata jalan kita kini jadi jalanku dan jalanmu

Begitupun waktu kita kini jadi waktuku dan waktumu,Begitupun waktu kita kini jadi waktumu dan waktuku

Kemarin kamu dan aku masih ingat kenangan kita..Kenangan yang jadi prioritas utama kita untuk tersenyuman masing-masing

Kenangan yang jadi saksi bahwa keadaan kita saat itu begitu berharga..Hal itu masih berlaku hingga kita mencoba untuk seiring lagi

Seiring yang diakhiri dengan kenangan baru yang tak indah apalagi penting.
Kenangan yang tak layak lagi untuk diingat oleh aku dan kamu...

Sebab memang benar Cinta sama tak datang dua kali.....

p/s: Kini mengertilah aku tak perlu menunggu..biarkanlah kau dan cara mu aku dengan cara hidup ku..maafkanlah kerna mengganggu kehidupanmu yang tak perlu kehadiran ku...

Monday, November 3, 2008



Sihat ker? Aku ...Alhamdulilah....sihat dan penat sikit..iyer laa tak habis2 ke sana ke sini. Hari tu ke Melaka then, ke S'pore pulakk.... baru2 ni ke Taiping...mak aaiii...penat nyer badan ni...semalam aku dok melepak kat rumah je...tak larat nak ke mana2....pagi tadi tiba2 aku kena asthma ....after so long... and aku dah lama tak guna Inhaler so tak de inhaler kat rumah sib...baik ada ubat..subuh2 aku telan pill and sampai skrg ni satu badan aku mengeletar....tangan n kaki aku mengeletar mcm org kene Parkinson pulak.Aku rasa mungkin badan aku penat sangat kot sbb tu laa kene asthma..dah 3 minggu aku tak kene its a good progress...selalu nya tiap2 pagi mesti kene asthma...aku rasa asthma ni satu psikologi laa....kalau kita terlalu bergantung pada inhaler kita akan sentiasa di serang asthma without any reasons...kalau kita buat tak tau je and sentiasa bernafas dengan betul insyallah kita tak akan di serang asthma...

Itu mengikut pengalaman aku laa...aku cuba utk tidak bergantung pada inhaler...Alhamdulilah dah 3 minggu aku tak gunakan inhaler...kalau kene astha sikit2 pun aku bernafas mcm biasa..and it will go away.... kalau tak aku cepat panik bila inhaler aku tak de dalam bag or aku lupa bawak....itu yang aku kata is psycology...hehehehehe...insyallah...berkat doa dan exercise yang aku selalu lakukan asthma aku will go away.. amin...