Thursday, December 31, 2009

Cinta dari Khalil Gibran...



Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Assalamualaikum,

Terlalu banyak cinta yang hilang di dalam hidup ku dan juga teman2 ku. Kita hanya merancang dan Allah yang menentukannya.. Terbaru ku terima dari seorang teman dari seberang...selama ini aku yakin dia telah menemui bahagia setelah menderita akibat cinta...2 tahun melayari bahtera kebahagian namun terhempas juga di pukul badai sengketa..Ya Allah...seharian aku menangis mengenangkan kisah melankoliknya...its so heartbreaking.Aku doakan dia tabah menghadapi segala ujian ini..mungkin Allah ingin mengangkat darjatnya disisi NYA....ameen...

Melihat akan kesedihan teman2 disekelilingku aku merasa seakan2 berada di ruang yang vakum...ruangan yang membuat ku merasa kebas seluruh badan...aku tak dapat merasa kesedihan diorg kali ni kerana mungkinkah kerana kebahagiaanku? Alhamdulilah..aku bahagia...alhamdulilah..Allah kurniakan cinta yang membahagiakan...semoga ia kekal hingga ke akhir nafas ku....

Wahai teman2 ku yang sedang di dalam kesedihan...keperitan jiwa yang tiada kata2 bisa terucap..hanya doa kan kata2 semangat yang dapat ku bekalkan untuk memujuk hatimu yang duka..berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang menanggung derita di jiwa..puisi Cinta dari khalil gibran adalah pemujuk hati. Insyallah ia akan merawat duka walaupun hanya seketika.... semoga kau terus tabah teman2 ku....i'm here for you....*hugs & kisses* *cry*

kenapa kita menutup mata ketika kita tidur?
ketika kita menangis?
ketika kita membayangkan?
itu karena hal terindah di dunia tdk terlihat

ketika kita menemukan seseorang yang
keunikannya sejalan dengan kita, kita bergabung
dengannya dan jatuh ke dalam suatu keanehan
serupa yang dinamakan cinta.

Ada hal2 yang tidak ingin kita lepaskan,
seseorang yang tidak ingin kita tinggalkan,
tapi melepaskan bukan akhir dari dunia,
melainkan suatu awal kehidupan baru,
kebahagiaan ada untuk mereka yang tersakiti,
mereka yang telah dan tengah mencari dan
mereka yang telah mencoba.
karena merekalah yang bisa menghargai betapa
pentingnya orang yang telah menyentuh kehidupan
mereka.

Cinta yang sebenarnya adalah ketika kamu
menitikan air mata dan masih peduli terhadapnya,
adalah ketika dia tidak memperdulikanmu dan
kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia.

Adalah ketika di mulai mencintai orang lain dan
kamu masih bisa tersenyum dan berkata
” aku turut berbahagia untukmu ”

Apabila cinta tidak bertemu bebaskan dirimu,
biarkan hatimu kembalike alam bebas lagi.
kau mungkin menyadari, bahwa kamu menemukan
cinta dan kehilangannya, tapi ketika cinta itu mati
kamu tidak perlu mati bersama cinta itu.

Orang yang bahagia bukanlah mereka yang selalu
mendapatkan keinginannya, melainkan mereka
yang tetap bangkit ketika mereka jatuh, entah
bagaimana dalam perjalanan kehidupan.
kamu belajar lebih banyak tentang dirimu sendiri
dan menyadari bahwa penyesalan tidak
seharusnya ada, cintamu akan tetap di hatinya
sebagai penghargaan abadi atas pilihan2 hidup
yang telah kau buat.

Teman sejati, mengerti ketika kamu berkata ” aku
lupa ….”
menunggu selamanya ketika kamu berkata ”
tunggu sebentar ”
tetap tinggal ketika kamu berkata ” tinggalkan aku
sendiri ”
mebuka pintu meski kamu belum mengetuk dan
belum berkata ” bolehkah saya masuk ? ”
mencintai juga bukanlah bagaimana kamu
melupakan dia bila ia berbuat kesalahan,
melainkan bagaimana kamu memaafkan.

Bukanlah bagaimana kamu mendengarkan,
melainkan bagaimana kamu mengerti.
bukanlah apa yang kamu lihat, melainkan apa
yang kamu rasa,
bukanlah bagaimana kamu melepaskan melainkan
bagaimana kamu bertahan.

Mungkin akan tiba saatnya di mana kamu harus
berhenti mencintai seseorang, bukan karena orang
itu berhenti mencintai kita melainkan karena kita
menyadari bahwa orang iu akan lebih berbahagia
apabila kita melepaskannya.

kadangkala, orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah
orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cinta
kepadamu, karena takut kau berpaling dan
memberi jarak, dan bila suatu saat pergi, kau akan
menyadari bahwa dia adalah cinta yang tak kau
sadari

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2 is better than 1



Tuesday, December 29, 2009

My 2010....least expect it, and expect nothing in return..

Bismillahirahmanirrahim..

Assalamualaikum..

Many years ago, I was sitting with a friend discussing her recent engagement. My friend and her boyfriend had been dating for some time, and even though it was clear they were meant for each other, their long courtship had been filled with break-ups and reunions. I remember looking at her pointedly:

"I want to ask you a question," I said. "First of all, I think it's great that you and Fazli are getting married. But I was wondering: how do you know that you want to spend the rest of your life with him? How do you know you'll love him forever?"

Her answer surprised me: "Well," she smiled, "I know some people were surprised when we actually went ahead and got engaged, considering how rocky our relationship must seem. But the truth is, frankly, I don't think love is an emotion. Love is a decision. And I know I want to commit myself to deciding to love him every day, for the rest of my life. And he feels the same about me."

I'm sure my twenty-something-year-old self thought her answer was highly unromantic. But as I've gotten older, I've realized she's right: love isn't just that exhilarating rush you get when someone walks into the room. It's is also the decision to consciously love, even when the going gets a bit rough. It's the decision to do something nice for someone when they least expect it, and expect nothing in return.

Coming into 2010, I'm thankful that I remembered this conversation I had with my friend so long ago. I think, for this coming 2010, I'm going to make the decision to love someone every day and try to do something unexpectedly kind for someone I love, whether it's a family member, or a friend, or a stranger or even a charity whose work I admire. If you're so inclined, I challenge you to do the same.

These are the most important people in my life for now.... my lovely family!! i would sold my soul just to be with them!!! Love you guys till my last breath..









Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Family day out and the preparations...

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....

Assalamualaikum...

Its been a very tiring weekends...Alhamdulilah... its all worth it!!

Friday check in for my S'porean uncle, aunties and beautiful cousin Faezah at Bukit Bintang. I didn't realize that Bukit Bintang has a lot of nice budget hotel... should inform habibi about this good news..so senang to go to Tarbush!!! hahahahaa...

Anyway...on Friday tu terus ke Masjid India...cari bunga telur, tempat letak hantaran and also berkat utk guest. Penat seyy!!! satu masjid india kita tawaf...hahahahaa...but Alhamdulilah..semua dapat di cari...

Saturday pergi rumah Obeq Salleh pat Puncak Alam....Ya Allah jauh nyeerrr....tp sib baik ada driver kesayangan....Thank you darling!!Di puncak alam kitaorang makan..makan dan makan lagi...hahahahahaaa...Sedap betul Obeq Salleh masak!!! Tapi sampai skrg aku tak boleh recall ikan apa yg dia goreng!! Lauk kari ikan kurau, lauk bening and sambal tumis petai udang or udang petai...ntah laa macam mana nak sebut tp aku tak makan pedas kan so buat bodo je laa...aku makan lauk being dgn ikan goreng yang sedap tu..Ya Allah...apa nama ikan tu eehh... iisskk...makan tau tapi nama ikan tak tau... hahahahaaaaa...

Anyway, dari Puncak Alam kita ke Puchong Prima...hujan lebat sepanjang perjalanan dan Alhamdulilah semua selamat sampai Puchong at 3pm..aku pun terus ke bilik solat Zohor and then baring2 kejap...kesian darling aku kene pergi beli vade and goreng cempedak!!! Tak pe laa dia suka kene suruh...aku pun terlelap....sampailah cousin aku kejutkan aku nak tumpang solat Asar kat bilik..then aku turun bawah tgk darling tgh solat kat bilik bawah...Umi marah aku sebab dia kata tak baik aku tinggalkan dia kat bawah...hahahahaa....Ya Allah...Abi kan ada apa dia tak blh berbual ke dgn Abi and the rest? hhmm...tak kan nak berkepit jee? rimas seeyy...

Malam hantar darling balik to his hotel and sempat jugak cakap pasal berkat guest yang kita kene collect kat Semua House...yes darling i remember that!!

Sunday plakk pagi2 buta kita dah bangun...hantar adik aku ke ERL coz aku tak sanggup nak hantar ke KLIA...hahahahaa... and then kita siap ke wedding di Bukit Jelutong!! Ya Allah...we hv to go thru the same road again!!!!tapi tak jauh mcm Puncak Alam laa kan..tepat kul 12 tengahari kita sampai kat Dewan Guthrie...Alhamdulilah...makan makan..and makan then terus ke bukit bintang plakk...amik org S'pore coz nak bawak diorg ke Kelana Jaya...kesian darling aku keletihan tp nak buat mcm mana ... family day kan... nak sgt jadi family aku and now kenelah aku bawak ke sana sini...Alhamdulilah...he's happy!!

Lepak kat Jasmine Tower sampai petang...dari makan Tomyam yang sedap tuu hinggalah ke keropok belinjau....terkulat2 muka darling bila makan keropok belinjau..hahahahaa...lupa nak bilang...keropok tu pahit sket!!! hahahahahahahah...Umi marah aku coz buli dia....aku tak buli laaa aku lupa nak bilang ajaaa... hahahahaha... sorry laaa!!!

Then hantar Umi n Abi balik Puchong lepas tu kita keluar lepak kat Pampas di Bukit Bintang...nice place and aku dah booked for new year eve dinner kat situ. Insyallah we gonna hv a nice dinner together on the eve of my birthday!!!Just the 2 of us!!!

Lepak kat Pampas till 1130 then kene balik laa coz aku keje besok!!! tak faham2 ke? dia tak nak balik tp aku nak balik...hahahahaa...so drama kan? but he had to let me go that night. kata dia awal sgt aku nak balik...Ya Allah...aku keje laa besok!!! sabor je laa eekk...

Anyway, malas nak layan drama king tu aku hantar dia kat hotel and terus balik puchong...sampai rumah...Abi dah tunggu kat depan pintu..tgk jam...sib baik belum kul 1pgi...hehehehe...

Well, overall...we do have a nice weekend with our families!!! Alhamdulilah... Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah...We been blessed!!! Alhamdulilah...i love my family!!and i love you more!!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

Tasbih Julia



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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Where you are...

Bismillahirahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum...

Finally I have found a place into which I fit perfectly, safely, and securely with no doubts, fears, sadness, or tears. This place is filled with happiness and laughter, yet it is spacious enough to allow me the freedom to move around, to live my life, and to be myself. This wonderful place, which I never believed really existed, I have found finally in your arms, in your heart, in your love.

I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you-just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down-not just when you're fun to be with. 'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them-asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me.

Part of who I am, I mean the best parts, are what you gave me..

Thanks for saving me from these sickness....kemo never been an easier things to do. Thanks for reading the Yassin and Quran for me ...my tears flows like a river in every verses from your sweet lips...i know you feel the pain too...i heard your sad voice controling your tears...each verses u read had comfort my pain..and slowly ease my pain away... O Allah ... i love his man..Bless him with all the joy and happiness in his life with or without me.

I will remember that moment and i truly believe that you really love me that much..and i love you too if you only knew. Alhamdulilah..i never wanted anything else than being with you till the rest of my life..insyallah..i hope i can grow old with you..and i hope i love you all my life...ameeenn....

Monday, December 14, 2009

The Wedding



Bismillahirrahmanirahim....

Ya Allah....pls bless this family...pls fills their life with full of loves, health and rezki...ameeenn...

As usual any wedding in S'pore is the best and memoriable wedding!! Ya Allah...so happy to see everybody!!! Alhamdulilah and i feel so blessed to be part of these family...May Allah bless all of us...ameennn....






Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Love now not Then...

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....

Assalamualaikum...

He was sitting looking at me the other night with a strange look on his face. I asked what was wrong. He said he was so in love with me and he`d never felt this way about anyone before. He had tears in his eyes.

He loves me more than anything now and says it feels completely different, in a good way! Our relationship is so much better than there's ever was. I'm his future now. :)

I don't beat myself up over something i cant control or change. There was a reason why their relationship ended and he's with me now.

Most guys i will meet from this age onwards will have some sort of a past and i'll have to expect it. So concentrate on my relationship now and make it better than it ever was with his ex. There's no point in dwelling, it will only make me bitter.

I used to feel the same thing but looking back I find that this is actually a pretty silly thought. Everyone has his past, and everyone is trying to move on from the past.So quit acting miserable. It's not doing you any good and you're ruining the day for everybody.

If a new love makes us nervous, we need to remind ourselves that the past is gone. This is a brand new person. Just keep relaxing about the past and focusing in the present until you reach the here and now. Also, remember that when you are embarking on something new, some fear is natural. Just don't let fear run your life -- or keep you from loving.

Don't set too much hope in the future. Remember, this is the future, right now. Learn to depend on what you can do to fill your life with love in the here and now.

We are now, not then. Our lives are now, not then. And above all, love is now, and not then. Therefore, instead of worrying about the past, and instead of hoping for a bright future, let us give our full attention to the here and now. And let love rule.





The secret that we know inside us..

Bismillahirrahmanirahim..

Assalamualaikum,

People feel good around positive people. He may have broke your heart or she may be the scariest of all witches, but it is up to you if you want to move on or get back with that significant other. Start assuming responsibility and acknowledge that you were part of the relationship also and there are lots of reasons why people break up. Having ALL the reason is a recipe for unhealthy relationships and solitude.

Whether you would like to meet a new person or just get back with your ex, you should stop complaining and start doing something about . By complaining about your ex, you will surely scare out new prospects and most people are not interested in other peoples' problems, they have too much with their own.

The breakup was not probably your fault, but who cares? You want to fix your broken heart and do it now! So start by giving yourself some love and recognition. Go to a spa and get your hair done, because it is not easy to leave the role of a victim. Stop acting needy and go do your homework, the world is full of opportunities.

Look for opportunities in ALL aspects of your life, be thankful and receptive to what life has to offer you. You will notice that establishing a new relationship and fix a broken heart is not hard after all, it just takes a little effort of your part.

One important thing is confidence, without it, long term relationships tend to fail. By trusting in yourself you learn to trust people and that leads to successful, long-term relationships. Have a look at yourself in the mirror, what do you see? Learn to trust in yourself and people will follow in.

The secret that we know inside us.

Even when people lie about the truth, we still know its inside us and we can't run away. In many times this ligth talk with us(like inside us), but we still pretend not to listen it.



I have a tale to tell
Sometimes it gets so hard to hide it well
I was not ready for the fall
Too blind to see the writing on the wall

Chorus:

A man can tell a thousand lies
I've learned my lesson well
Hope I live to tell
The secret I have learned, 'till then
It will burn inside of me

I know where beauty lives
I've seen it once, I know the warm she gives
The light that you could never see
It shines inside, you can't take that from me

(chorus)

2nd Chorus:

The truth is never far behind
You kept it hidden well
If I live to tell
The secret I knew then
Will I ever have the chance again

If I ran away, I'd never have the strength
To go very far
How could they hear the beating of my heart
Will it grow cold
The secret that I hide, will I grow old
How would they hear
When would they learn
How would they know

Monday, December 7, 2009

Akulah Sang Mantan...

...hold me tight and we will run together in search of the dream,the dream that we shared Just U & Me...

Jangan terlalu mengharap...itu pesan Umi ku..tak pernah aku hiraukan.7 tahun aku menunggu dia, semata2 kerana nak mendapat restu orang tuanya. 7 tahun beb!! kalau ada anak dah sekolah dah. Tapi cinta punya pasal kita bersabar sambil tu kita bina masa depan bersama. Alhamdulilah...kedudukan ekonomi semakin kuat tapi restu keluarga masih lagi hampa..

Bukan nak mengungkit cerita lama tapi aku nak jadikan sebagai peringatan untuk semua dan juga diri sendiri. Walaubagaimana sayang sekalipun kita pada dia jangan sekali2 kita meletakkan harapan yang terlalu tinggi...kita hanya merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan....bila kita tak dapat apa yang kita idamkan kita akan kecewa dan akan mencari kesalahan orang lain..orang lain akan kita persalahkan diatas perpisahan kita...tapi kita lupa bahawa..ini adalah takdir kita...mungkin ada hikmah disebalik perpisahan ini..

Tak salah untuk bersedih atau menangis...that's human but don't get carried away. Kalau kita rasa kitalah manusia paling malang dalam dunia percintaan ini mungkin ada lagi manusia yang lebih malang daripada kita...

Dulu aku pernah bertunang tapi lagi 2 bulan kami nak nikah tunang aku kene tangkap basah dengan budak bawah umur so nak tak nak dah gatal sangat dia kawin juga dgn budak tu..dan tunang aku ni memang baran orang nyer aku dengar dia selalu belasah isteri dia sampai keguguran..so now aku rasa bernasib baik kita putus tunang. Kalau tak aku teruk kene belasah...

Then aku bercinta sampai 7 tahun dengan seseorang dan perhubungan kami tak dapat restu keluarga dan akhirnya bf aku meninggal dunia dlm kemalangan jalan raya...kalau kami kawin aku akan jadi balu sekarang ni...Ya Allah...setiap yang berlaku itu ada hikmah yang kita tak tau...

Selepas tu aku makin berhati2..kerana aku harus berfikiran terbuka..sekiranya yang datang ini adalah jodoh aku , aku terima ...kalau tak aku redha!! Ya Redha!! memang senang nak cakap tapi sukar utk dilakukan dengan ikhlas...

Susah nak lepaskan orang yang kita sayang tapi nak buat mcm mana...setelah apa yang aku lalui aku harus telan segala pahit.Aku berharap cinta yang tulus dari Allah swt. Aku berdoa siang dan malam agar Allah temukan pemilik tulang rusuk ku ini...Ameenn..

Kini aku bahagia dengan cinta dari keluarga dan sahabat baik ku..Tiada yang dapat ditukar ganti dengan kasih sayang diorg Alhamdulilah... aku amat menyayangi diorg...Buang kisah sedih, perbaiki akhlak diri, penampilan diri, say nice thing to others, sedekah dengan senyuman, baca 1 page Al quran tiap2 selepas solat fardhu dan hargai kasih sayang orang disekeliling kita..insyallah..hidup akan lebih bermakna.Rancang percutian, discovered your hidden talent, sing our heart out at Red box!!! hahahahahaaa, spend 2 hours a day watching comedy movies and laugh ur heart out!!..believe me!!! its all worth it!!!

p/s: Lagu ni tak de kene mengena dengan yang hidup atau yg telah meninggal dunia. :P i just missed the singer!! Ya Ampun!! suaranya geren!! moga2 2010 ni Nidji datang ke Suria lagikkk!!!! Enjoy the song with an open heart!!! wasalam!!!!

Real Love...



This is what he made for me...so sweet kan? I love him too!! The only person who loves me so much and understand me after my family...Hope this love is forever. Ameenn..insyallah...May Allah Bless all our families...ameenn!!!

(I ask Allaah) that He makes you from those (people) that, when given are thankful; and when tested, are patient; and when they sin, they repent. And verily these three are the keys to happiness--Muhammad ibn Abdul Wahhaab

Isnt True Love an act of faith? Yes it is.Remember who ever is of little faith is of little Love.~Hamid

You are far away from me right now but...distance can't separate Hearts.Thats why I know we(friends in faith)are thinking of each Other in a very Special way !!!

Friday, December 4, 2009

Qhalas!!!Qhalas!!

Learn silence as you have learned speech. Speech will guide you and silence will protect you.

If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it.
In Happy moments, praise God.
In Difficult moments, seek God.
In Quiet moments, worship God.
In Painful moments, trust God.
In Every moment, thank God.

Supplication for eyes that tear....
Sayyiduna Abdullah Ibn Umar (RA) narrates that the Holy Prophet (PBUH) used to make the following Du'a:

'Oh Allah, grant me such eyes that weep profusely, curing the hardheartedness of the heart with the excessive flow of tears that are shed due to Your fear, prior to that time, when the tears will become blood and the teeth like coals.' (Jamius sagheer).

"What is destined will reach you, even if it be underneath two mountains. What is not destined, will not reach you, even if it be between your two lips!" — An Arabic proverb

Tasbih Julia



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Diam ku bukan BODOH!!! Repent!!!

Assalamualaikum,

*sigh*

Repent!! The best word for you!! Stop blaming other people if you are not happy with your life.Say what u meant and meant what you said!!Friendship is impossible with a liar.Pride blocks progress and damages greatness!!Boasting issues from small minds!!

Hadis-hadis Rasullullah mengenai kelebihan diam yang bermaksud : “Barangsiapa yang banyak perkataannya, niscaya banyaklah salahnya. Barangsiapa yang banyak salahnya, niscaya banyaklah dosanya. Dan barangsiapa yang banyak dosanya, niscaya neraka lebih utama baginya”(Riwayat Abu Naim)

'Penyakit hati yang Allah maksudkan itu diantaranya ialah iri dengki, dendam, buruk sangka, serakah, cinta dunia, bakhil, pemarah, penakut, riya', ujub dan sombong"

“Barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan Hari Akhirat, maka hendaklah ia berkata yang baik atau diam”. (Riwayat Bukhari & Muslim)

“Barangsiapa diam makan ia terlepas dari bahaya”. (Riwayat At-Tarmizi)

BANYAK DIAM TIDAK SEMESTINYA BODOH, BANYAK BICARA TIDAK SEMESTINYA CERDIK, KERANA KECERDIKKAN ITU BUAH FIKIRAN, ORANG CERDIK YANG PENDIAM LEBIH BAIK DARI ORANG BODOH YANG BANYAK BICARA.

MENASIHATI ORANG YANG BERSALAH, TIDAK SALAH. YANG SALAH MEMIKIRKAN KESALAHAN ORANG LAIN.

KALAU ORANG MENGHINA KITA, BUKAN KITA TERHINA, YANG SEBENARNYA ORANG ITU MENGHINA DIRINYA SENDIRI.

Silence is the best reply to a FOOL

Whoever is offered an apology from a fellow Muslim should accept it unless he knows that the person apologizing is being dishonest.
- Muhammad (salAllahu alayhi wasalam)

Tasbih Julia



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O Allah..ampunilah aku

O Allah, Engkau selalu menjagaku, Engkau memaafkanku setelah maksiat yg kuperbuat di hadapan-Mu, lalu Engkau-pun masih menutup aib2ku. Engkau memberikan apa yang aku butuhkan. Engkau sungguh maha Mulia, kemuliaan-Mu meliputi langit dan bumi. Kapankah kiranya datang saat perjumpaan dengan Dzat yang maha Penyayang? O Allah, wahai yang maha Pengampun, ampunilah al-Faqir ini. Jika tanpa-Mu maka sesungguhnya diri ini adalah miskin lagi lemah....

Have i ever?

“Have I ever thought of loving the One Who created me, the One Who gave me a heart that can feel love? Has this heart ever felt love for Him? How many times have I cried for His love?

Have I ever spent any time, effort or money to express my love to Him Who has given me all these things? Am I confident enough to declare my love for Him? Do I ever miss Him in solitude or amongst a crowd? Or am I wasting away a beautiful emotion.

Our love is a measure of our faith. Is our love deep enough to recognize the One we cannot see.Ask yourself, “ How much do I love Prophet Mohammad who had said: “By Him in Whose Hands my life is, none of you will have faith till he loves me more than his father and his children and all mankind” (Bukhari).

Did you ever wonder how we can get Allah to love us too?
Muslims already have a day for expressing love and that is ‘Id-al-Azha when Muslims sacrifice a life to show Allah that they can sacrifice anything for Him-even their own lives.
Let us then find True Love

True love seeks sacrifice and I’ve given it all.
This, this is true love in it’s purest form.
I turn my face towards You now.
The Lord of my world and the Heavens above.
I am Yours and Yours, alone.
My prayer, my sacrifice are only for You.
My life and death are Yours to take.
A promise I make.
To lay my life for You.
An oath that I worship.
No-one but You.



my love is not a lie..
not knowing deceit..
not knowing sorrow..
there's no thousand promises..
its just happiness.. forever
whatever i'm feeling now..
its just a presentation for You..
hear these my love..

loving You is not knowing time..
not knowing poetry..
just plain sincerity..
loving You is not knowing doubt..
my certainty.. is just for You.. always

Thursday, December 3, 2009

The past is gone forever!!!

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulilah..i'm back with a new spirit and dreams. Sometimes sacrifice is really needed in a relationship. So happy to see him happy. Alhamdulilah..hope life treats him good. i hope he found what he's been looking for.and i hope i didn't hear any 'lonely' from him.For me the past is gone forever!!!Reading too much into the past is a waste of the present!!!

We never know what the future might brings but what we hv today is really much appreciated!!you do not know whether you will even see tomorrow.Leave the future alone until it comes.

Do not grieve over how people treat you. And learn this lesson by observing how they behave with Allah.

By brooding over the past and its tragedies, one exhibits a form of insanity - a kind of sickness that destroys resolve to live for the present moment. Those who have a firm purpose have filed away and forgotten occurrences of the past, which will never again see light, since they occupy such a dark place in the recesses of the mind.

Episodes of the past are finished with; sadness cannot retrieve them, melancholy cannot make things right, and depression will never bring the past back to life. This is because the past is non-existent.

Do not live in the nightmares of former times or under the shade of what you have missed. Save yourself from the ghostly apparition of the past. Do you think that you can return the sun to its place of rising, the baby to its mother's womb, milk to the udder, or tears to the eye? By constantly dwelling on the past and its happenings, you place yourself in a very frightful and tragic state of mind.

Reading too much into the past is a waste of the present. When Allah mentioned the affairs of the previous nations, He, the Exalted, said:

That was a nation who has passed away. (Qur'an 2. 134)

Former days are gone and done with, and you benefit nothing by carrying out an autopsy over them, by turning back the wheels of history.

The person who lives in the past is like someone who tries to saw sawdust. Of old, they used to say: "Do not remove the dead from their graves."

Our tragedy is that we are incapable of dealing with the present: neglecting our beautiful castles, we wail over dilapidated buildings. If every man and every jinn were to try jointly to bring back the past, they would most certainly fail. Everything on earth marches forward, preparing for a new season and so should you.

- taken from the book - Don't Be Sad - By Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni

Tasbih Julia



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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Tasbih Julia




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Monday, November 30, 2009

My happy family and i love them..



These people are the love of my life...i love them so much and we are so happy together and feel greatful...Alhamdulilah...May Allah bless us and all Muslims... ameeenn!!!!!





Sunday, November 29, 2009

U gotta MOVE ON!!!!!

Assalamualaikum,

I'm so pissed when someone questions about my personal life!!!I don't owe anybody an explaination about my personal life!!! Pls!!! Why do u need to know so much? would it be any changes if u knew to much? C'mon get a cup of coffee and smell the reality!!!!This is not the end of the world!!!

Do u think telling ur friends about me is good enuff? Do u think make a comment on my chatbox about ur sadness and try to convince me that u been cheated by someone is cool enuf???? C'mon!!! only COWARD didn't put their real name on chatbox!!!

i don't mind u reading this blog but pls don't pour ur heartbreaking stories in here nobody interested to know coz the one that i'm talking about is not the person u know ok!!!! not whoever u think he was.i wonder how come u can think that way?

From now on i just want u to back off from my personal life and i appreciate about ur concern but i think there's a limitation. By the way i don't mention any names here so don't simply accused people.That's not right.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Batasku Asaku



I was created from ur ribs why did I can live my perfectly, I’m here because of u but why can’t u live on ur own?

I Standstill in any affections, I’m not a decoration, this chain of love will be in my grasp, convincing my dreams in iman..

My boundaries reminds me of my ability, my heart was wrapped by ur sorban, my soul greet this sadness with iman in my heart

There’s no happiness in this story, this castle of love are fading away, for my Iman I kept this pain..find the courage pray to Allah

I don't deserve to cry...but i still hate u anyway..



You're jealous,You just can't stand to see me get along without you.Like I do, you told me to Now you're jealous .You don't know how hard it was to be alone without you and wanting you, like I do..I would have stayed if you'd wanted but you said I treat you so badly I can't be forgiven You know I have done anything to make it through with you But I don't deserve to be lonely Just 'cause you say I do

You're jealous You don't know how hard it is to be a woman in love with you
When you're so cruel, and so jealous You don't think about anybody's feelings but your own Are you coming home?

I would have stayed if you'd wanted Would have been willing But you said I treat you so badly I can't be forgiven
You know I would have done anything To make it through with you But I don't deserve to be lonely Just 'cause you say I do

So if you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
'cause I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away
If you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
'cause I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away

I don't deserve to be lonely
I don't deserve to cry
I don't deserve to be lonely

Still Hate u anyway...

I hate being put in this position.. I'm forcing myself to let go of the one person that I need in my life. He's the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me.. I know that I'm better off without him, yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go...but I guess that emptiness is better than constant hurt.

To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

You'll See!!!



You think that I can't live without your love
You'll see,
You think I can't go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You'll see
Somehow, some way

You think that I can never laugh again
You'll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you've done
I'll never find my way back home,
You'll see
Somehow, someday

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
All on my own
I don't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You'll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You'll see, somehow, someday

All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive,
I'll stand on my own
I won't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see

You'll see, you'll see
You'll see, mmmm, mmmm

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I HATE U!!!



i'm so hate u...
Really hate u...
i hate u till i can't breath...
i hate u till i don't want to hear ur name or see u in my dream...
i hate u for myself loving u more than i love myself...
i hate u...

u are so selfish..
u are so loser...
u are such a jerk...
u think u can just come and go into my life?
now i've closed all the doors for u...i'm already gone in ur freaking loser life!!!

i will not gonna let u hurt me again..
i will not gonna love u again...
because u had turned all my love into the GREATEST HATES!!!!
Damn!!! I REALLY HATE U!!!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Enta eh?



"So honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything?"

"I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can."

"This is all wrong and it shows. There's certain things I promised not to let you know."

"Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish."

"I can't say I blame you but I wish that I could."

"I'm coming over but it never was enough. i thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you."

"You've got me right where you want me. Let's never talk, let's never, let's never talk about this again because... I didn't want it to mean that much to me."

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Dear Angel

Dear Angel,

I'm not a girl who knows how to win your heart neither am I a perfect wonder. All I know is that I'm sincere and willing to work hard for you. I remember when the first time I saw you; you've captured all my soul. You with blue casual outfit together with your smile and ways you put things into passion impressed me. I'll remember that day forever. I always remember each detail happened every time we meet.

Sometimes I'm kind of scare to think of you because your heart tells me that we're impossible. I've tried many ways to forget you & stop all the pestering that makes you mad.But the more I have try, the feeling become stronger each day because I know I'm serious about you. When you're not around, I feel sad & worry. I feel I'm loosing something important.

Even you choose to be just friend, my sincerity remains. Please let me share your sorrow I'll wait for you with my truth.

Love,
Your Butterfly

i'm so already gone



Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone...

Monday, November 9, 2009

He loves me but he's not in love with me



I like him... that was the first feeling I felt when I first met him.

I tried to move on and pretend that i don't care about him but how can you keep away from a man who mean a lot to you. I never been in love with anybody else but him. He showed how much he love me but how can I love a person if i can't be with him. I wanna let go...i wanna move on, but i don't know how... i have a lot of questions left unanswered.Every time I get the chance to see him I fall in love with him all over again. I can’t stop thinking how much I still love hhim. It gets harder everytime we see each other.

I love him more than anything or anyone but we have recently been through a very tough time and he told me that he loves me but he is not in love. This broke my heart and i now feel very anxious, worried and concerned that i will lose him. But what i do know is that he needs space, time and for me to be patient. Hard though this is, i need to try and give him lots of his own time. We both are focusing on the love of spending time together, having fun and generally doing what we did at the start of our relationship. I hope one day that he will fall in love with me again as i have him in the past twelve months. There is always hope and if you love someone to the point where your life would forever be incomplete without them, try your very hardest to be patient and undertstanding. Explain how much you care and why you have done wrong in the past. Talk to each other but do not expect to know everything that is going on inside his head. People are allowed to have thoughts that they may not want to express for fear of hurting their partner but by dragging it out of them it may bring on feelings of guilt, which in itself can be a reason for people becoming further apart instead of becoming closer. Only you know how much time, space, patience and talking you can cope with.

So, you love me like a friend, a sister, a mother or what exactly? And if so,then why would you start a relationship with someone that you love in that way? Or could this just be an old excuse that people use when they’ve fallen out of love with someone and want to put an end to it?

Just curious what people really mean when they use this phrase to break up with someone.

What’s the problem? You in love with everybody?

They see you as a friend or a sister, but don’t want to propose marriage. It is also an old excuse!!

i just wanna be happy....so what if it hurts me?




Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Monday, November 2, 2009

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