Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Can i be patient like Zulaikha?


Sihat? Sorry laa its been a while i didn't update my busy many things happend lately and its too heartbreaking to tell.. i've learned to keep all the secrets i have learned till i die..

Anyway, i do a lot of reading lately about Zulaikha and Yusuf a.s...Ya Allah...their love stories really torn my heart apart!!! I'm so in love with Zulaikha now... i adore her unconditional love for Yusuf a.s!! I cried whenever i read their stories...Ya Allah..i wish i can be patient like Zulaikha....Zulaikha thus becomes the woman-soul who lives out her life in harsh repentance and endless longing.People always looked at Yusuf's torn garment but who saw Zulaikha's torn and broken heart?..Zulaikha who suffer the pangs of unrequitable love and longing. She thus became the courageous, strong heroine willing to bear anything for the sake of her Beloved.

The poets describe the woman, once so beautiful, aging in misery and sitting in description at side of the road, hoping to catch a glimpse of Yusuf. He, for his part, wants nothing to do with her..*cry*

Can u imagine how women suffer by the name of LOVE... *i cry again*

"If you are not Zulaikha and are not ground in the mill of love, do not waste time talking of "Yusuf of Canaan" is the warning Sana'i, the mystical poet of Ghazna (d.1131), gives. To his way of thinking, only the one acquainted with the pain of loving Yusuf has any right to speak of love.

After this period of yearning desperation, Zulaikha's unshakable fidelity is finally rewarded."When the torments of your lower soul and the weakness of your body have rendered you old and shabby, rejuvenate you soul, like Zulaikha, by yearning for your Friend."

" One day Joseph the Pure was walking along when he saw Zulaikha seated on the ground;The world hidden from her eyes,but then she had averted her eyes from the world;Afflicted with sickness and poverty, beside herself in a hundred different ways;Every moment suffering more than a hundred griefs,more concerned about Joseph than Joseph himself;Sitting on the road as though hoping that she might receive some of the dust raised by his feet; That perhaps some dust might rise from the road traveled by that king-like one. When Joseph saw her he said: "O God, what wilt Thou
with this blind and decrepit old woman? Why doest Thou not cause her to disappear seeing that she sought to bring disgrace on Thy prophet?

Gabriel descended and said: "We shall not remove her,For she has within her a whole world of love for him whom We love. Since her love for thee is unceasing I too love her for thy sake.

Who told thee to seek the death of the rose in the garden and to wish for the destruction of the friends of Our friends?

Though for a lifetime I have driven her to despair yet I will now make her young again for thee. She has given thee her own precious soul; if I now bless her let her be to thee as thy soul.Since she is filled with tenderness for Our Joseph, who would think in hatred of taking her life?

If she claims to love such a king as thou, her weeping eyes bear witness to her love" Since this lover has her witnesses with her her glory increases more and more every day."

Ya Allah this is the most beautiful and touching love stories i ever read... *cry*

Zulaikha said: "O thou with faith so pure is it too much for you, that you can't bear it!This flame has sprung from out my heart and you can't hold it for even a moment? You, of all Believers the First -- and I a woman!"

My heart has been broken for so many times but this time its really hurts me so bad...if only he knew... kan?

~ You mixed me up for someone who'd fall apart without you..Yeah you broke my heart for the first time But I'll get over that too!!Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied.Did you think that every time I see you I would cry? If you think love is blind that I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines.You never really knew me.. ~

Friday, May 22, 2009

It knocks me down!!!


Sihat? Me? Well, so many things happend lately... and i don't feel like writing anything now... may be one day i'll write about it.....

Anyway, this song really Knock me down!!i love this song!!! and it knocks me down!!! knocks me down!!!!

[Intro (Keri Hilson)]
Heh.. not again..
Ohh.. this ain't supposed to happen to me..

[Verse 1 (Kanye West)]
Keep rockin, and keep knockin
Whether you Louie Vouitonn it up or Reebokin
You see the hate, that they're servin on a platter
So what we gon' have - dessert or disaster?
[Verse 1 (Keri Hilson)]
I never thought I'd.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
but I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin bout our life our house and kids (yeah)
Every mornin I look at you and smile
cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down

[Chorus (Keri Hilson)]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Verse 2 (Ne-Yo)]
I never thought I'd hear myself say (ooh)
Ya'll gon head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today (kick it wit my girl today)
I used to be commander and chief
of my pimp ship flyin high (flyin high)
til i met this pretty little missile
that shot me out the sky (ohhh shot me out the sky)
Hey, now Im crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss independent (ohh, to the fullest), the load never too much
she helpin me pull it
she shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight,
girl sometimes love

[Chorus (Keri Hilson)]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Verse 3 (Kanye West)]
Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
you was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
seem to only date the head of football teams
and I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin
We were never meant to be baby we just happen
so please, don't mess up the trick.. hey young world I'm the new slick rick
they say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice
OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa it's me
Baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flyin, now I'm crashin
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson
now I'm mad, real mad, joe jackson
you should leave your boyfriend now, Imma ask him

[Bridge 2 (Keri Hilson)]
Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaa
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoaa, whoaaa
and if it hits better make it worth the fall

[Chorus (Keri Hilson)]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around)
and it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Outro (Keri Hilson)]
Won't see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Allah Almighty says what means:

*{Say: O my servants! who have acted extravagantly against their own souls, do not despair of the mercy of Allah; surely Allah forgives the faults altogether; surely He is the Forgiving the Merciful.}* (39:53)

Allah Almighty says what means:

*{And your Lord says: Call upon Me, I will answer you}* (40:60)

None of us is free from sin. Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “Every son of Adam is a sinner, and the best of sinners are those who turn (to Allah) in repentance.”


Sihat ke?

Aku Alhamdulilah...tak terkata dgn perkataan tak tergambar oleh perasaan betapa hebatnya dugaan yang aku lalui...

Last few days i've been thru the hardest time in my life and half of my life are gone. Seriously!! but everytime i pray i read Yaseen and ask Allah to wash away all my sadness and make everythings back to where it was before. Alhamdulilah... we've found the path to fix all the broken pieces.

Yes, i give him a second chance to fixs all the things he has been messed up with!! He is in my heart and he could definitely have learned to appreciate me more. Nobody is perfect, we're human and we all make mistakes.

We’ll never know what happiness can be made if we hold onto the past. It hurts- that’s why it’s called heartbreak. But if we learn to let go of the fear and give love a second chance, the reward may be more than we ever imagined. I’m for love and happiness.

Remember, to error is human, to forgive is divine.

Monday, May 11, 2009

If only he knew.....

It was all said and done..I can't believe what you did. How can I be the one? Is it all just in my head.Trying hard not to breathe. Maybe then I'll let you leave.Nothing more I could do All I am is there with you.It was easy to see. She would cherish your love, your touch, your kiss and all that's in between.I gave you my soul To have and to hold So lost, confused....If only he knew....If only he knew....

Sunday, May 10, 2009

To the one who has a broken heart...


The whole day today i'm surfing the net trying to find some motivations words or things that can make me heal this broken heart and suddenly i've found this article and i can't believe it i cried after i read this article....Subhanallah..this is what i want to read...insyallah i'll be fine....

To the one who has a broken heart……cry if you want to cry….that really human… But you shouldn’t feel the world end….Don’t let your heart in trouble with revenge… but make that as a precious experience, a time to gain your closeness to The Owner of your heart [Allah subhana wata’ala] to share Him every single of your pains… The One and the only One who will understand you in every deep, every piece of your heart… The One who will never judge you and tell how stupid, silly and idiot you are….

A great person……A strong person… always cry in front of Him…. Every drop of tear in your prays to Him will relief your heart, will heal your broken heart… will clean your soul and will liberate you life…..

Allah put you in that situation must be for reason. Allah must want make you learn to respect more about your life…. perhaps Allah wants to test your patience… Allah wants to remind you… or perhaps that calamity for pay your owe because of some particular sins you did [because sins are owe that we have to pay someday…]….

If you decide to involve in things… there are must be the consequences…. Consequences that have to be considered at very first before steps in one adventure…. At least ready to responsible to every step of your actions….. and get hurt that one of the consequences….

The pain that you feel will make you respect your life, a precious experience that caste you become a compassion person…. teach you if you cant do the same to other…because you already known how it feel… you will have a gift to help other to remind them from heart to not experience the same pain like yours….

In the same time, you should ask yourself about your sincerity…. Did you really base your action in sincerity… You should ask ...what wrong with you intentions…. If you do something for the sake of Allah why you feel hurt and pain if things not go like what you dream?

If someone hurt you… that a precious time where Allah will answer every of your pray [ Allah will answer pray of people who are oppressed]…. That also a precious time to gain big reward by forgive and pray every good thing for ones who hurt you….

When we feel other did hurt us and oppressed us, be careful with our prays because Rasulullah SAW said "Be afraid, from the curse of the oppressed as there is no screen between his invocation and Allah." [HR BUKHARI] , sometimes in anger we tend to prays bad things happened to the oppressors.

What if Allah answers that pray [ in fact perhaps the one who hurt us are our dear ones ...our close friends, parents, relatives or people that we love… ].

Each time of painful words, actions of that person haunting in your mind... each time tear drops... each time your feel the same bitterness and pains.......Never forget to ask forgiveness for the person who hurt you…force your lips to pray for his/her goodness.... to ask forgiveness for him/her...........Because each time you feel that pains...that person also get more sins of hurting you......

They would get the consequence of their bad deeds to Allah subhana wata'ala .... Forgiveness with help you to cure your heart.... May Allah will record that as the righteous deeds, insyaAllah…

Indeed it’s very difficult to forgive when we are be a victim…indeed it’s difficult to forgive when our heart hurt… difficult to be sincere when our heart sick… But it’s a journey….. the jannah not that easy to gain…. .

Finally…. As far what you did based on sincerity…. As far you have tried your best whole heartly…. If things not work… remember Allah must have other plans… better plan…. insyaAllah…. Please forgive and forget…. This will help you a lot… insyaAllah….

Wallahu alam bishshowab…..

Saturday, May 9, 2009

This heart has been hurt...

Don't u ever tell me that your love is just for me but u gave it to someone else...i'm sorry i have to let u go it just because you've hurt me so much...
There's nothing i can do in this world without u

and this is what i'm gonna say to you for the last time...

i cried whenever i think of how cruel you are to me...
you are in love with someone else..
i cried to watch you go out of my life...
but you must remember one thing....
i'm the one that you hurt so much!!!

Dont' pretend that you still care about me coz i can't live in another lie...
and don't worry i'm not gonna mess up your life coz i'll be very busy fixing the broken pieces of my life...

Alhamdulilah....Allah has sent me an angel to heal this broken heart and to ease these pain...