13 Days to go : The Last Flight Out

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

14 days and i'm still sober!!!

Assalamualaikum,

How r u? Sihat? me ok laaa....miss him!!! wuuaa.... hehehee..ya la but not that bad laa i cried one night only..then after that i'm sober .... Alhamdulilah...i'm ok now..it just i worried about him..''

Finally he called!!!! Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah...Alhamdulilah..He's in Syria when he called me...and almost burst into tears because the 1st word i heard from him is Sayang!!!!!! Ya Allah..i missed that voice!!He sound so happy and i wish i'm there to see that.. and he said he missed me so much and he want me to be fine and take care of myself and insyallah he'll taking a taxi to Iraq from Syria...it was 7pm there when he called and its midnight here...He'll move to Baghdad at midnight and insyallah when he reached An Nasiriyah he will call me...and now i'm waiting for that call...just to make sure that he's at his parents home...

Ya..i missed him so much and i hope to see him back in one piece... and i meant it..3 is too crowded..that's all i can say...tell me that i'm selfish yes i am..i hv to..this is what we've promised..to focus on our dreams...so when u say it mean it!!!

Anyway, i don't want to think about that now...all i need is his phn call from his hometown and tell me that he's safe there...and insyallah he'll be back in 2 weeks!!

From now on i will continue fasting until he come back!! and its Rejab and going into Syaaban anyway...i need to fast...for Allah, Rejab to Syaaban and for him to come back safely...insyallah....amiiinn....

If Today was your last day....

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

You know what's sad about love?

"Its when u happend to know that there's just no hope for u being together yet u still pray to make it work"

"its when ur mind says let go but ur heart says hold on"

"and most of all, its when no matter how u try to forget him....u just can't, bcoz of the fact that u still love him and u just don't know why"

" Try loving someone you've loved before and u'll realize that it will either lead to the same thing before or something better...Not hard isn't it? but why not try loving someone who doesn't love u back....its either let urself giving up or dying daily.."

" If u love and get hurt...love more, if u love more and get hurt more then love even more..if u love even more and get hurt even more, love some more until it hurts no more.."

"The gauge of how much u truly treasure something or someone is not how happy u are with them...but how sad u are when u lose them.."

"One grows distant from another not becouse of indifferent but because of fear, Thers's the fear that hurt gets greater as one get closer"

" Falling in love is never a decision - always by chance, Staying in love is never a chance - always by choice and falling out of love is never a choice - always a decision"

"Fate brings u together but its still up to u to make it happen..We may meet someone by choice..but loving and staying with that someone still a choice"

"Just because my eyes don't hv tears..it doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry"

"Just because u always see me strong..it doen't mean nothings wrong"

"sometime i choose to pretend i am happy so i don't hv to explain to people who would never even understand"

"smiling is always easier then explaining to all why i am sad.."

"It's never the tears that measure the pain...sometimes its the smile we fake"

"A person who truly love u is someone who see the pain in ur eyes ....while everybody believes in the smile on ur face"

"The person who u love most has the best capasity to make u the happiest person in the world and my give u the worst headache then u can never imagine"

"Time can heal wounds but it can never get back what we once had and lost....Time can't tell when or how we would move on after all was said and done..because God gave us time but we never valued this gift He had given us...So learn to treasure the one u choose to love now...because when they go...there won't be time to have them back...."

"In life, i've done everyway of fighting.Heard every painful truth.Been in every heartbreaking scene and felt every dreadful feeling...i thought going thru it all will make me realize that i have to stop the fight at least so save a little for myself ...but u know what's funny? its when i seem to be so much tired of it all..but still i can't just quit no matter how hard it is and i have to continue hoping that one day i'll be able to find someone who could love me not just right but real"

" I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we better off letting go..its like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.."


"Time may take us away...space may keep us apart..rumours and hurts may break us down...yet no matter where life leads us...i will always be there and never stop caring.."



Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love eachother
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
Wat we no longer long

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

Redha

BISMILLAH HIR RAHMAN NIR RAHEEM

(In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful)

All praise is for Allah. Darood (Blessings) and Salaam (Peace) on Muhammad, his Family, and his Companions.

ALLAHUMMA SALLI ALA MUHAMMADIN WA ALA ALI MUHAMMADIN KAMA SALLAITA ALA IBRAHEEMA WA ALA ALI IBRAHEEMA INNAKA HAMEEDUM MAJEED

ALLAHUMMA BARIK ALA MUHAMMADIN WA ALA ALI MUHAMMADIN KAMA BARAKTA ALA IBRAHEEMA WA ALA ALI IBRAHEEMA INNAKA HAMEEDUM MAJEED

Assalamualaikum,

Its been a long time i didn't come here.....so many things happend in my life...my pagal's life and i don't even know where to starts and how to write them all in this blog.Its really a heartbreaking to know the truth. More heartbreaking to face the reality...Ya Allah...i've living in most hurtful days and Alhamdulilah ..Allah has sent His Angels to protect me from going out of my path...Insyallah..no matter how difficults my life gonna be i will never shut You down..i still have my FAITH in You my Lord...

Every nites i cry myself to sleep...try to stop thinking about it but i can't..This pain is so real...i'm not only talking about my love life but i'm talking about my life too...

If we love Allah, it is a must that we sincerely sacrifice everything in us for His Sake. This means that we have to be patient in the performance of all forms of ibadah (worship) that Allah and His Messenger r have enjoined upon us. We have to remember that us Muslims Allah will test our Faith:

“Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil) but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere.” (Qur’an 2:155)

Abu Hurairah t narrated that the Prophet r said, “A Muslim male or female, remains subject to trials (in this world); in respect of self, children and property till he or she faces Allah the Exalted (on the Day of Judgment) in a state in which all his or her sins have been remitted.” (Tirmidhi 49)

I've no idea the shape of my heart now..so many times been broken...Ya i do love u still but its not the same life before...i don't even know that i'm still in love with u or not...but hating u is the last thing wanna do...and forgiving u is so hurtful..

Forgive me Allah
For the wrongs I have done.
For anger, I shouldn't have
Against anyone.

I know I'm weak Allah,
But I love You, I really do,
And in spite of my weakness,
I know You love me too.

Forgive me for not reading Your word,
And for the times that I stray.
Forgive me for just being too tired
When I don’t take the time to pray.

Give me the strength, Oh! Allah,

to do what I should each day.
Let Your love shine through me
So others will follow Your way.

Even though I've failed You Allah,
I know You'll forgive me,
And this I promise Lord,
A better Muslim I will be.

For Your presence is in me
Filling my heart with Your love,
And I have Your reassurance
You’re guiding from above.

I love You Allah, and thank You
For the blessings You bestow,
I will tell others about You
So Your goodness they too, will know.

Always love & care them who love You..

I would like to whisper to every heart on the road... one must carry on, seeking, loving and giving. Whatever happens, facing sadness or adversity, our strength is this love, this spirituality..above all these you love me but you are not in love with me...

Rejab datang lagi.....Alhamdulilah...

KELEBIHAN BULAN REJAB

Sabda Nabi s.a.w.: Hendaklah kamu memuliakan bulan Rejab,nescaya Allah muliakan kamu dengan seribu kemuliaan di hari kiamat.

Sabda Nabi s.a.w.:
Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Sya'aban bulanku & bulan Ramadhan bulan umatku.

Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya, Sya'aban dengan malam NISFUnya Ramadhan dengan LAILATUL-QADARnya.

Malam awal Rejab mustajab do'anya.(Dalam Kitab Raudhoh Iman Nawawi)

* Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab mendapat syurga tertinggi (Firdaus).

* Puasa dua hari dilipatgandakan pahalanya.

* Puasa tiga hari pada bulan Rejab dijadikan parit yang panjang, yang menghalangkan dia keneraka (panjangnya setahun perjalanan).

* Puasa empat hari pada bulan Rejab diafiatkan daripada bala dan daripada penyakit yang besar-besar dan daripada fitnah Dajal di hari kiamat.

* Puasa lima hari pada bulan Rejab, aman daripada azab kubur.

* Puasa enam hari pada bulan Rejab, keluar kubur bercahaya muka.

* Puasa tujuh hari pada bulan Rejab, ditutup daripada tujuh pintu neraka.

* Puasa lapan hari pada bulan Rejab, dibuka baginya lapan pintu syurga.

* Puasa sembilan hari pada bulan Rejab keluar dari kuburnya lalu, MENGUCAP DUA KALIMAH SHAHADAH tidak ditolak dia masuk syurga.

* Puasa 10 hari pada bulan Rejab Allah jadikan baginya hamparan perhentian di Titi Sirotolmustaqim pada tiap-tiap satu batu di hari kiamat.

* Puasa 16 belas hari pada bulan Rejab akan dapat melihat wajah Allah di dalam syurga dan orang yang pertama menziarahi Allah di dalam syurga.

* Puasa 19 belas hari pada bulan Rejab, dibina baginya sebuah mahligai di hadapan mahligai Nabi Allah Ibrahim a.s dan Nabi Allah Adam a.s.

* Puasa 20 hari pada bulan Rejab, diampunkan segala dosanya yang telah lalu. Maka mulailah beramal barang yang tinggi daripada umurnya (pembaharuan umur).

Berkata Saidina Ali:

* Puasa Rejab 13 hari seperti puasa tiga ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 14 hari seperti puasa sepuluh ribu tahun.
* Puasa Rejab 15 hari seperti puasa seratus ribu tahun.

Kelebihan bulan Rejab dari segala bulan seperti kelebihan Qur'an atas segala Qalam.

Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab seperti puasa empat puluh tahun dan diberi minum air dari Syurga.

Puasa 10 hari pada bulan Rejab dijadikan dua sayap, terbang seperti kilat di atas Titi Sirotalmustaqim di hari kiamat.

Puasa sehari pada bulan Rejab seperti mengerjakan ibadat seumurnya.

Puasa pada awal Rejab, pertengahannya dan akhirnya seperti puasa sebulan pahalanya.

Bulan Rejab Syahrullah (Bulan Allah), diampunkan dosa orang-orang yang meminta ampun dan bertaubat kepada Allah. Puasa Bulan Rejab wajib baginya:

* Diampunkan dosanya yang lalu.
* Dipeliharakan Allah umurnya yang tinggal.
* Terlepas dari dahaga di hari kiamat.

Orang yang lemah dari berpuasa pada bulan Rejab hendaklah bersedekah tiap-tiap hari sekurang-kurangnya sebiji roti. Sasiapa bersedekah pada
bulan Rejab seperti sedekah seribu dinar, dituliskan kepadanya tiap sehelai bulu ruma jasadnya seribu kebajikan, diangkat seribu darjat, dihapus seribu
kejahatan.

Tiap sehari puasanya pada bulan Rejab dan sedekahnya pada bulan Rejab seperti ibadat seribu Haji dan Umrah. Dibina mahligai seribu bilik dan seribu bidadari, lebih cantik daripada atahari seribu kali.

Bulan Rejab bulan Allah. Bersedekah pada bulan Rejab dijauhkan Allah daripada api neraka kerana kemuliaan bulan Rejab, Bulan Allah. Allah jadikan di belakang bukit Jabal Qar bumi, yang putih yang penuh dengan
Malaikat dengan panji-panji berhimpun pada tiap malam Rejab meminta ampun oleh mereka kepada Umat Muhammad.

Allah menjawap: Telah aku ampunkan mereka! Barangsiapa meminta ampun (bersitighfar) kepada Allah pagi dan petang 70 kali atau 100 kali, pada bulan
Rejab di haramkan tubuhnya daripada api neraka.

Sesiapa berpuasa sebulan pada bulan Rejab, Allah berseru kepadanya:
"Telah wajib hakmu atasKu, maka mintalah olehmu kepadaKu. Demi ketinggian Ku dankebesaranKu, tidak Aku tolakkan hajatmu. Engkau adalah jiranKu dibawah `arasyKu, engkau kekasihKu daripada segala makhlukKu,
engkau terlebih mulia atasKu. Sukakanlah kamu, tiada dinding antaraKu dan antarakau".(dari kitabRaudatul Ifkar)

Puasa pada 27 bulan Rejab seperti berpuasa enam puluh bulan pahalanya. Jika disertai dengan sedekah seperti puasa seribu tahun, kerana kebesaran hari ISRAK-MIKRAJ.

Siapa melapangkan kekeruhan, kesusahan, kesempitan orang mukmin pada bulan Rejab dikurniakan Allah kepadanya Mahligai yang besar di dalam syurga Firdaus.

Siapa berpuasa tiga hari pada bulan Rejab dan beribadat pada malamnya(berjaga), seperti dia berpuasa tiga ribu tahun.

Diampunkan baginya 70 dosa-dosa besar tiap-tiap hari, ditunaikan 70 hajat ketika keluar nyawanya daripada jasadnya, 70 hajatnya di dalam kuburnya, 70 hajat ketika terbang suhuf (ketika Qur'an dinaik ketika berlalu di Titi Sirotalmustaqim.

Rejab ertinya ta'zim (kebesaran, keagungan, kemuliaan). (Rahmat, pemurah, kebajikan). Kerana kebesaran, keagungan dan kemuliaan bulan Rejab itu
maka Allah limpahkan rahmatNya, kemurahanNya dan terhadap hamba-hambaNya yang beriman dan beramal solih pada bulan Rejab, dengan berpuasa pada siangnya dan beribadat pada malamnya.

Demikianlah peri keistimewaannya keagungan bulan Rejab itu yang dinamakan dengan BULAN ALLAH.

REJAB bulan menabur benih.
SYA'ABAN bulan menyiram tanaman.
RAMADHAN bulan menuai.

REJAB menyucikan badannya.
SYA'ABAN menyucikan hatinya.
RAMADHAN menyucikan rohnya.

REJAB bulan taubat.
SYA'ABAN bulan muhibbah.
RAMADHAN dilimpahi pahala amalan.