Unintended

Unintended lover? What do you mean by that?I don't how to react? Nak marah or nak nangis or nak diam jer? i'm numb!! really freaking confused with what's going on and whats in his head? What were you thinking D? Life seems too easy for him....i can be his unintended choice? He thinks i have no other things to do then stood here and wait for him? i've waited long enuff...and with all my heart i just want to say that....WE ARE SO OVER!...now i understand why you want me to listen to this song....Unintended by Muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Cintakan membawamu kembali....

Tiba saat mengerti jerit suara hati yang letih meski mencoba melabuhkan rasa yang ada. Mohon tinggal sejenak lupakanlah waktu, temani air mataku teteskan lara.....
Merajuk asa menjalin mimpi....Endapkan sepi-sepi.....

Cintakan membawamu kembali disini .....Menuai rindu membasuh pedih.... bawa serta dirimu, dirimu yang dulu mencintaiku apa adanya....

Saat dusta mengalir jujurkanlah hati kenangan batin jiwamu, kenangkan cinta seperti dulu saat bersama tak ada keraguan......

I was in a Hell week last week!!! its very difficult to tell you what's going on coz i can't explain to myself....i'm living in his shadow but actually he's my shadow!!! How can i get rid of it? its been so hard to me now...i don't know what is it actually but this song explain everything...sang by Mike Indonesian Idol - Cintakan membawamu kembali.....

i am ready for love.....

Assalamualaikum....

Minggu lagi laa aku busy....kena siapkan business plan for Suria...alamak!!! mental blocked laaa...dah berapa hari aku tak blh tido dok pikirkan ayat2 yang sesuai untuk difahami oleh Board of Directors aku nanti....eerrrrmm..Oleh kerana benda ni privacy giler aku kene buat benda ni dalam meeting room!!!Ahaha...giler kuasa sey!!! tapi nak buat mcm mana kan..buat kat luar bising and also byk gangguan tau!! nak angkat phn lagi nak bukak pintu lagi....itu belum despatch dtg..eh...aku ni mcm receptionist laa pulak kan....tapi nak buat mcm mana ...semua keje kene buat sama2 laa iyer laa opis kecik nok!!!So aku pun dok melayan dirik di dalam meeting room sorang2 sambil dgr lagu dr facebook dan tiba2 terdengar lagu dari Indie Arie..i'm ready for love...haiyyooo...teringat kat arwah bf aku....hhhmmm...sedih la plakk...bacalah lirik dia...mengancam jiwa sey.....

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready

Minggu yang membingungkan....

Heyloww.... it was a very very very tiring week!! Dengan Live n Loud, parents moving in, Radio Fest,Suria New id's, Suria New Segment, and macam2 laaa...Penat sey!!!Aku start dengan Radio Fest nyer PC dulu laa ehh....

Rasa sedih, rindu, happy and all that inbetween laa bila jumpa dengan Seelan, Anida, Kak Zu,Hawa, Shah, Abg Subi, Linda Onn and semua laa.....hehehe...macam2 benda nak cerita sampai tak cukup masa...teringat good old days....hahahaha...Radio Fest starts from 6th December till 7th December at One World Hotel...this gonna be fun!!!
Later that evening aku pergi nonton Jazz Nite@ Zouk....Ada Noryn Aziz, Malique and of course Tompi!!! Malique and the gang really impress me!!! Mmg bagus banget dong!!! very entertaining!!!1st time tgk Malique perform secara live di depan mata ternyata diorg ni memang bagus banget!!! Aku starts to compare diorg dengan band2 yang ada di negara kita but on top of it 'creativity' is the key word!!! Yeap!!! aku rasa pasti ramai yang agree!! mmg betul!!! performance diorg bertenaga dan powerful!!! Tak malu laa kalau nak perform kat mana2 pun..diorg mmg best!!!

Tompi!!! yeahh!! but not to my expectation laa....biasa jer persembahan dia...but ok laa dapat jumpa Tompi depan mata....

Suria....Hidup Pasti Rancak!!!

Akhirnya Suria telah dilancarkan secara rasmi nyer that's mean aku ada byk benda nak buat!!Korang tunggu jer laa..The New Suria FM!!!!! Gempak abis!!!!

Suriaaaa!!!! hehehe....barisan DJ2 Suria, En Yusry Ketua Pegawai Penyiaran, KC Ismail Pengurus Program Suria, En Jazman Pengarah Suria fm, Engku Emran Ketua Operasi Suria and me Penerbit Kreatif Suria FM.......Really having so much fun working with the team!!! oh i almost forget my One and Only Comittee...... Faiza ppsstttt!!! Engku Emran's PA hahahaa.......

Oklah nanti aku update pasal Jazz Nite mlm ni eeh... aku amik gambar byk2....tak sabar2 nak tgk Tompi!!!!!! Selalu dengan muuuuuuuuuuuuuuu........

Words Of The Day.....

Finally, we got to watch Live n Loud!! YEah!! Our very 1st kick off is RnB Nite!!!

Just the 4 of us!!! Myra , Zaff, Opie and me really kick our ass out with the show that night!!! What a show!!

Thank God!!! we manage to reach the stadium before the heavy traffic!!

The show overall was GOOD!!!EXCEPT...some of the vulgar behavior...i think they just getting so excited....beside that everything's is OK la!!!



Actually kan.... kitaorg datang pat sini just nak tgk Taufik!!!! hahahaa....really!! Myra , Zaff and i really wanted to see Taufik perform right infront of us!! Alhamdulilah.....we got it!!! here is his best shot laa....and we all agreed that Taufik is a very....very....very....talented singer!! And we are so proud of him!!!!and he made Myra scream her heart out!!!! My Gosh!!!! Myra ni over tau!!! hahahaaha.....Anyway, we gonna missed Taufik and in our prayers everyday we hope Taufik will be in KL a lil' bit longer!!! *Grin*

Hah!!! Imran!!! my 1000 tahun guy!!! hahahaha...it's nice having Chicken chop and fish n chips after the show!!!! Thanks for sending me home!! such a gentleman eehh!! Caya lah dik!! Actually, Imran and i shared a hillarious moment!!! We went for a movie the other day and we've watched a movie spoof about Britney Spears and it was so funny until it took us about half an hour to stop laughing!! and tell you what while typing this blog i'm laughing thinking about that Britney movie spoof!!!! and i know Imran just couldn't get over it!!! Right imran?? hahahahaa....ketawa laa sampai pengsan!!!!
Imran is so cool to hang out with!! Next time i nak bawak Imran gi main bowling pulak!!! amacam ada berani? I ratu Bowling tau!!! Can't wait to see him next week!!! Okay aarr dah lewat ni... i need to sleep coz tomorrow will be a PC for Radio Fest! at One World Hotel!!! Yay!!! i can't wait to meet my fellow ex-ampian!!! hehehehe....missed them so much!!Jumpa lagi ppl!!!!! ciao!!!

p/s: words of the day : Loving you were the words of the day....if only he knew!!!

Yasminatik!!

This is my dear niece..Yasmin!! My another idol!! She so cute isn't she? She sooo charming!! She's my cutie pie!!My one and only pearl in my life!!! Actually she's a diamond in my family...She's 2 yrs old and soooooo smart!!! but one thing about her is...she can't stay quite for a second....always got things to do!! Kids nowadays are so acive and smart!!!

Do you know what she called me? "Aung!" is Mak Long in her language!! hahahahaa...hope she did't call me that when she grew up!!!

We took this pictures last night at her place and this is the only thing she will stay quite .... taking pictures of hers...orang kata kalau dah perempuan tu perempuan juga ehh....Well, if i got time i'll upload more pictures of her in my blog ok!!!

That what's friends are for!!!!

What am i gonna say about this guy? hehehehe he's a great supporter!!As friend he's superb!!! He came all the way from Eh party just not be missed Suria's official launch!!! Thanks JOe Lee!! That's really fair and square!!!We really having a great time at the back stage!! Gosh!! i wish i could snapped a lot of pictures but i'm working baby!!! i need to stay focus!! hahahaa iyer la tuu!! mati laaahh!! (that's what Joe used to say!! hhhahahahaha keji tau!!! ) laariikkk!!!!!

If Only He knew......

it was all said and done...i can't believe what you did, How can i be the one? is it all just in my head. Trying hard not to breathe may be then i'll let you leave, nothing more i could do...all i am is there with you....it was easy to see....She would cherish your love, your touch, your kiss and all that's in between....i gave you my soul to have and to hold...so lost ...confused...if only he knew....if only he knew.....

Biarlah ku relakan segala walau hidup ku sebuah tanda tanya...mengapa...biarpun tak mampu ku bertahan tak kan pernah ku akui kalah....

Masih terdampar ku di sini...tiada jalan mungkin ku lalui ...haruskah hidup ku di persenda? mengharungi dugaan melanda...ku berserah.......

Tuhan ku ku relakan segala....takkan pernah ku akui kalah ....ku percaya.... ku yakin padaNya.....Dia yang menentukan semua..

Lagu If only She knew dan Berserah dari Taufik Batisah benar2 mengingatkan aku pada arwah....i missed him so much!!! but i'll never give up!! aku tahu Allah telah menyediakan sesuatu yang terbaik untuk ku dan aku kan sabar menanti saat bahagia itu......

Yang terindah terlukis di bibir mu..tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu...pudar kah cinta yang ku beri...berwarna warni segala yang di janjikan ia....Usah biarkan ku bersendirian...

What a NIGHT!!!!

Akhirnya rasa legaa semua nyer berakhir dengan selamat dan meriah!!!! Majlis Pelancaran Rasmi Suria FM dan Konsert Kemuncak Rancak Roadtour di Dataran Merdeka mlm semalam!!!! Best Giler!!!! Especially crew2 yang keje kat backstage memang happening!!!!

Tak sangka ramai orang datang menyaksikan show ni!!! Alhamdulilah!!!!Setelah berhari-hari berhempas pulas akhirnya kita semua berjaya menghasilkan sebuah show yang menarik!!! Alhamdulilah tak de perkara yang tak diingini berlaku...

Thanks to all the artistes, artistes managers, PR, Media friends and semua laaa.....mmg happening kat belakang stage!!! hahahaha... (next time kita buat lagik eehhh)

Suria....Hidup Pasti Rancak!!!!

Fiqnatic!!!!!

As promised!!! aku letakkan gambar Taufik Batisah kat sini....cute eehh!!! Patutlah ramai perempuan giler kat Taufik batisah!!!! termasuklah aku!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuu!!!!Sebelum aku jumpa Taufik Batisah ramai orang bilang dia ni sombong lah byk cerita lah banyak colok laa so aku pun macam dah standby untuk menempuhi semua tu....TAPI bila 1st time Taufik Batisah nampak aku kat Dataran Merdeka untuk soundcheck dia yang tegur aku dulu!!!! he say the 1st "Hi!!!!"....owwhh.....so sweet of you Taufik Batisah!!! You Got me at "Hi" !!!!! hahahaahaha..... perasan seyy aku ni.... but really he's super friendly laa beb!!!! siapa bilang dia SOMBONG? Tak baik tau fitnah idol aku yang sekor ni.....

Fiqnatic!!!! Fiqnatic!!!hahaha!! Aku dah bilang mmg aku one of Fiqnatic!!! tak percaya eeh? tgk ni....

Aisey, ramai yang baca blog aku ni mesti suka tengok muka Taufik eehh!!!! mmg sejuk perut mak mertua sey!!Dia ni memang peramah laa.....kat back stage pun tak duduk sorang2 ada jer orang yang berbual dengan dia....at least dia buktikan yang dia tak SOMBONG!!!!!

Masa interview dia pat ofis pun dia ok....mcm2 cerita sey..ada jer benda nak cakap...tapi masa tak mengizinkan...tapi tak pe aku percaya satu hari nanti kita akan ada peluang untuk duduk satu hari berbual about everything!!!!

Anyway, its nice to have Taufik Batisah in KL!!! And jangan lupa dengarkan Bintang di Suria bersama Taufik Batisah sepanjang bulan Disember ni......muahssss!!!!

It's Saturday and i'm in the office!!!

Harroo!!!

Penat sey hari ni.... pagi2 buta dah ke Dataran Merdeka , soundcheck Imran Ajmain, Farawahida and Taufik Batisah!!!! Aarrrghh!!!! Did i say Taufik Batisah?? Aarrgghhh!!!!! My God!!! he's here!!!! in KL!!!! Aarrrghh!!!!!! wokey!! Julia jgn over ok!!!! maintain cantik please!!! hahahaha...

aku ada amik banyak gambar2 dgn Taufik tapi nanti baru aku upload kat sini.... but 1st aku nak upload gambar dgn our one and only Juan Danza!!!

Konon2 nyer Juan macho laa eeh.... piirraaahhhh!!!!! tapi yang paling best Juan Danza always support my career!!! Caya lah Juan...tak sabar lepas ni kita ada byk project togedder!!!!

Well, jap lagi aku nak upload gambar2 mesra alam bersama idola kuuuuu!!! Taufik Batisah!!!!

Hanya Kau yang mampu...

Tiba-tiba tak blh tido, sbb dapat sms dari Lia kawan aku yang nak kawin Ahad ni...tapi dia kat New York la....dia tau aku tak blh datang so dia hantar SMS je.Nisa plak hari ni bertunang tapi buat kat Kedah...

Dalam hati berkata sorang demi sorang kawan aku kawin....ok laa...Alhamdulilah..sekurang-kurangnya doa aku Allah dengar laa jugak kan....

Jangan tanya soal kawin lagi pada aku....kerana aku pun tak tau!!!

Macam kata kawan aku Shanaz....bila orang tanya dia "bila nak kawin?" dengan selamba nye dia jawap "bila kau nak mati"....hahahaa......Shanaz...shanaz....sungguh lazer mulut mu...dia bilang jodoh and mati ni kita semua tak tau...so buat apa tanya?

Tapi lumrah manusia dah biasa dengan soalan cepu bedak mcm ni kan?Aku mula2 tak nak pikir2 sangat tapi bila dah ramai org tanya bila aku nak kawin....jawapan paling selamat "next year" hehehehe so itu laa jawapan aku di tiap2 tahun...

Pasal jodoh ni tak payah nak pening2 kan kepala....kalau ada jodoh adalah...kalau tak de kita patut berbangga at least kita blh bgn lewat!!! hehehehee......

Nanti aku ceritakan tentang jodoh pertemuan kawan baik aku ni....mmg tak di sangka2 ..... tapi skrg aku nak tido dulu..... daaaaaaaaaa!!!! nite2!

What a week!!!

The week ends so fast!!! i didn't realise it..until i make a call to some of my guy friends and i was wondering why do they off their handphone or some of then not even answer my calls...rupanya hari ni hari Jumaat!!! hahahaa...what laa!!!

i wonder where's my boss KC Ismail is going coz he hardly go out for lunch but why today he's missing.... rupanya pergi sembahyang jumaaat!!! Tak boleh nak salahkan kerana semua org kat opis sibuk dengan persiapan untuk sabtu ni...

Nervous!!! Of course!!! mintak2 laa ramai org dtg!! Ada ramai artis yg datang!! My fav. Imran Ajmain!!! My Idol Taufik Batisah!!!!!My Sifu Dayang Nurfaizah!!! My brothers The Fabulous Catz!!! My lovely Dafi pun ada!!! ramai gakk aarr....macam Mawi, Amy Search, Hattan, Waheeda, Farawahida, Elyana, Bandi Amuk, Erra Fazira....hehehe...

Oklah mata dah mengantuk bsk kul 930pg dah kene ada kat Dataran Merdeka...nanti aku letak laa gambar byk2 eehhh...

Ciao!!!

Suria.....Hidup Pasti Rancak

Assalamualaikum...
Akhirnya daat juga aku rehatkan kepala sket.Jam dah pukul 2pagi..aku masih berjaga..apa tak, sampai rumah dr opis dah jam 1pg...singgah kedai burger kak ina, makan burger daging special terus balik..ni pun tak berbual sgt dgn kak ini kalau tak mau nyer berjaga sampai kul 4pg...aku kalau bersembang mmg tak cukup 24 jam hehehe...

Dah masuk 6 bulan aku keje kat Suria FM.... mmg best!! keje yg kurang stress dan working environment yg best!! Boss yang best!!! COO yang best!! hahahaaa....dj2 semua best2.....Alhamdulilah...so far semua berjalan dengan lancar....masa keje pun best...9pg sampai 6ptg...sabtu ahad cotii.....yeaahh!!!! itulah yang ku mau!!!

ok lah aku cuma nak test drive blog ni jer...nanti aku sambung cerita eehhh.....take care!!!